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‘The French proverb is at fault, as far as I am concerned,’ said
Geoffrey. ‘I am your friend. I am Dinah’s. At this present hour I
reprobate the conduct of both with strict impartiality.’
‘My conduct is negative. I find myself placed by an outburst of the
eternal feminine injustice in a ridiculous position. I must, as men
have done before me, live a ridiculous position out. Whatever my wife
desires in the way of money arrangements shall be hers. On the day when
she is tired of Tavistock Moor I shall be at her feet.’
‘All this might be aptly said if you were in a stage-box, a critic
looking on at the histrionic break-up of other people’s lives, with a
view to the morning papers.’
‘I have tried, since I was a boy, to regard everything concerning
myself from an indifferent person’s point of view. The habit has become
second nature, and----’
‘Shake yourself free of it to-night. You are not an indifferent person.
You are not criticising a scene in a mixed drama. You have to decide
whether you, Gaston Arbuthnot, intend, at thirty, to be a failure or a
success.’
‘A failure!’ repeated Gaston, his pride galled instantly. ‘In your
office of peacemaker, Geff, don’t allow your good will to run away with
you. We have a score of big examples--Byron, if you choose, at their
head--to show how men of shipwrecked lives can give the world the best
of their genius.’
‘When you come to genius,’ said Geff, grimly truthful, ‘we are off our
lines. We are talking of common men, not of giants. For a man of your
calibre, Gaston, to forfeit his domestic happiness is to forfeit all.
In losing Dinah, whatever her folly in proposing the Quixotic scheme,
you would lose your right hand. Up to this time, even with a good and
beautiful and long-suffering woman at your side, your backslidings have
been many. Do you think you are going to work onward and upward without
an influence such as Dinah’s has been to hold you straight?’
‘You speak hotly, Geff.’
‘I feel hotly,’ answered Geoffrey, without an effort at a fence. ‘My
own life has been spoilt--I--I would say,’ he corrected himself, ‘the
happiness which men like you, Gaston, can throw away or keep as they
choose, is not likely to come near me. Mine must be sought for in
such commonplace daily work as I have strength to do. This gives me a
selfish interest in the welfare of the people I love. Your fireside and
Dinah’s,’ he attempted a lighter tone, ‘is the only one to which I can
look forward in my old age.’
Again Gaston watched his face curiously. Perhaps in the moment’s keen
illumination he read aright the larger nature than his own, apprehended
with his balanced mixture of worldly depth and moral airiness, a page
whose intricacies should never, in this life, be wholly deciphered by
poor Geff himself.
‘You were right as to genius, Geoffrey. There is an ingredient wanting
in me! If I had had your heart I should not at thirty be a manufacturer
of third-rate prettinesses for the dealers.’
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