Girton College (University of Cambridge) -- Fiction; Women college students -- Fiction
Dinah rose hastily. She turned her face away from the fire’s light.
Amidst the full happiness of the last year, in her wifely rejoicing
over Gaston’s progress in his art, in the flood of charity towards
all men which had come upon her with the new delights of motherhood,
she had always dreaded the cloud ‘no bigger than a man’s hand,’ had
always remembered the secret which a jealously locked drawer of her
dressing-case hid out of sight. Her moral attitude towards Gaston
had perforce been a stooping one, an attitude of dumb forgiveness.
Believing in the present, hoping all things for the future, it had not
been possible for her wholly to forget the past. In this moment’s sharp
enlightenment, this unlooked-for vindication of Gaston’s loyalty, her
first sensation was one of relief. Succeeding it--so swiftly that Dinah
distinguished not where relief ended and pain began--there swept across
her the keenest shame which in her fair untarnished life her soul had
ever known.
‘You believe that the letter came from Marjorie Bartrand?’
The question fell from her lips almost unconsciously.
‘One suspects the Greek “e’s,” and see--here, in this corner is the
Bartrand crest, an eagle with a bad-tempered beak and upheld claw. Take
back your own, wife, your cherished _vendetta_. I will have none of it.’
‘And you think she cared, really, for poor Geff?’
‘Marjorie was seventeen years old. The season of the year was June.
They bent their heads together over the same schoolroom table.
Even I--I, who have been so long out of the running, saw whither
things tended as early as the rose-show. Geff, no doubt, after a
Platonic mode, admired the budding Girton girl--a girl,’ said Gaston,
narrow-mindedly, ‘far too pretty for her calling! There came a breeze
between them,--Geoffrey hinted as much to me the night before he left
Guernsey,--a threatening of storm which, if a certain letter had not
been kidnapped, might have cost him his life, I mean his liberty, there
and then.’
By this time the blood had gone from Dinah’s cheeks. ‘And all this was
brought about through me, through my small, self-engrossed jealousy.
Oh, Gaston, how sinful I was, how guilty I am still! But for me,
Geoffrey might long ago have come to happiness. He was our best friend
always, and I betrayed him. I am the veriest wretch on earth.’
Tears of repentance rushed to Dinah’s eyes.
‘You do not mention a slight reparation you owe to Linda Thorne,’
observed Gaston, with his shrewd smile. ‘You forget that something may
be due also to me, even me, a husband.’
‘I was ill, body and mind, that miserable day. I had scarce had an
hour’s sleep since I came back from Langrune without you. A flimsy
excuse,’ poor Dinah faltered, ‘and yet the only one I have to offer.’
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