'She refused Jerningham, of ours, who was foolish enough to propose
in the first flush of her widowhood, and she refused Jack Rakes of
the Coldstreams last month, and sent him off to the Continent to
console himself,' Desmond was saying; 'she has vowed, they say, that
she would never, never marry, after the death of that fellow in the
line--what's his name?--Beverley, don't you know, and here I find her
billing and cooing most picturesquely in an arbour! It is right good
fun, by Jove! I only wonder who the party is that was receiving "the
outpouring of an enamoured heart, secluded in moral widowhood;" and I
might have discovered, if I had only pretended to blunder into the
arbour; but then I hate to make a scene, and it's deuced bad form to
spoil sport.'
Vane felt it in his heart to knock the laughing plunger down, when
hearing him run on thus.
It began to seem painfully evident that all this episode could not be
falsification. Major Desmond had no particular interest in Ida,
though piqued, as much as it was in his lazy nature to be, at Clare,
for refusing the lounging offer he had made her.
For the other he had neither liking nor disliking; but, in all he
told Vane, he seemed inspired only by that love of gossipy chit-chat
in which even men of the best position will indulge by the hour at
their club or elsewhere, together, perhaps, with the desire, so
invariable, to quiz the grief of a widow, especially if she is young
and handsome.
'There is,' says a writer, 'no weakness of which men are so ashamed
of being convicted as credulity, and there is none so natural to an
honest nature.'
But to the storm that gathered in the honest heart of Jerry were
added rage, astonishment, and an overwhelming sense of utter
disappointment.
Where had this unknown come from, and whither did he go? Where had
she met him, and how long had this mysterious, and, to all
appearance, secret intimacy lasted? What manner of man was he, that
she was ashamed to have him introduced to her family? He had
heard--he had certainly _read_--of ladies, even of the highest, most
delicate nurture and tender culture, by some madness, inversion of
the mind, or by temptation of the devil, taking wild fancies for
valets and grooms, and even marrying them in secret, and thus at
times all manner of horrible speculations crowded into the now giddy
brain of Jerry.
Ida! wildly as he loved her he would rather she were dead than less
or not what he supposed and believed her to be; but he thought
bitterly, 'Alas! where was there ever man or woman who reached the
spiritualised standard of idealistic love?'
So, in spite of himself--it was not in human nature that it could be
otherwise--his old jealousy, that barbarous yet just leaven which he
had felt in the past time, when she preferred Jack Beverley to
himself, grew in his heart again.
Public-domain text, read in full here on John Shaqi.
Reviews
Reviews
No reviews yet
Be the first to share your thoughts on this work.
Elsewhere in the archive
Join the Discussion
Join the discussion
Sign in to leave a comment or review.
Sign InorCreate an account