The doctor sat the vase so violently down upon the writing-table as to
break it. "I wish our whole military strength might be brought to bear
against this obstinate lieutenant, and force him to come home!" he
cried angrily. "And so he is not to return to us! He went away as a
sick man, whose life we half despaired of; and now, when he might come
back healthy, honored, admired by all the world, he will not come.
Doctor Behrend, there is some hidden reason for all this! He might have
come with you if he had chosen, but he really flies from B. Why did he
always make his military duties an excuse for absence, and now that
they are ended, why will he persist in remaining away! Something has
happened. Tell me what it is."
"I know nothing about it," replied Doctor Behrend evasively. "Perhaps
he dislikes the ovation which awaits him here. You know he could never
endure being placed in the foreground."
"Nonsense!" cried the doctor furiously. "He must now step to the
foreground. We tolerated that anxious timidity in the scholar; but now
when he has launched out under full sail as a poet, we forbid all such
whims!"
Behrend shook his head. "Do not cherish too great hopes as to Walter's
poetic future," he said. "I very much fear that with the sword, he will
also lay aside the poets, then bury himself among his books, shut
himself out from the outside world more vexatiously than ever, and in a
year's time stand just where he did at the opening of the war."
"He will not do that!" cried the horrified doctor.
"He will; it would just suit his fancy. With all his genius, Walter
remains an incorrigible dreamer; his energy is only an impulse of the
moment. In moments of excitement and inspiration such natures do and
dare all; as soon as the incitement is wanting, they sink back again
into their dreaming. Life in its every-day dress is nothing to them,
simply because they do not understand it."
"And a delightful thing it must be to dream away one's life," cried the
doctor excitedly pacing up and down.
"Sensible men like you and me, Doctor Behrend, haven't the least idea
of the nonsensical things that haunt such a learned, poetic head as
Walter Fernow's."
"He needs a spur to effort," replied the doctor, gravely. "He needs an
energetic, ardent force to remain daily and hourly at his side, and
wrest him from that ideal life, to animate him for the conflict
with the world and give him what he does not possess; ambition and
self-confidence. If this were granted him, I believe there is no height
he might not attain in the long future yet before him. But if an
unhappy passion once comes to such a nature--"
Here Doctor Stephen suddenly wheeled around, and with supreme
astonishment gazed into his colleague's face. "An unhappy passion!" he
cried. "For Heaven's sake, our professor has not fallen in love!"
Behrend bit his lips in vexation. "Oh, not at all! It only occurred to
me as a mere supposition."
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