Ever since the morning, from the very instant when, chill with horror,
she had read Lavretsky’s note, Lisa had been preparing herself for the
meeting with his wife. She had a presentiment that she would see her.
She resolved not to avoid her, as a punishment of her, as she called
them, sinful hopes. The sudden crisis in her destiny had shaken her to
the foundations. In some two hours her face seemed to have grown thin.
But she did not shed a single tear. “It’s what I deserve!” she said to
herself, repressing with difficulty and dismay some bitter impulses of
hatred which frightened her in her soul. “Well, I must go down!” she
thought directly she heard of Madame Lavretsky’s arrival, and she went
down.... She stood a long while at the drawing-room door before she
could summon up courage to open it. With the thought, “I have done her
wrong,” she crossed the threshold and forced herself to look at her,
forced herself to smile. Varvara Pavlovna went to meet her directly she
caught sight of her, and bowed to her slightly, but still respectfully.
“Allow me to introduce myself,” she began in an insinuating voice, “your
maman is so indulgent to me that I hope that you too will be... good
to me.” The expression of Varvara Pavlovna, when she uttered these
last words, cold and at the same time soft, her hypocritical smile, the
action of her hands, and her shoulders, her very dress, her whole being
aroused such a feeling of repulsion in Lisa that she could make no reply
to her, and only held out her hand with an effort. “This young lady
disdains me,” thought Varvara Pavlovna, warmly pressing Lisa’s cold
fingers, and turning to Marya Dmitrievna, she observed in an undertone,
“mais elle est délicieuse!” Lisa faintly flushed; she heard ridicule,
insult in this exclamation. But she resolved not to trust her
impressions, and sat down by the window at her embroidery-frame. Even
here Varvara Pavlovna did not leave her in peace. She began to admire
her taste, her skill.... Lisa’s heart beat violently and painfully. She
could scarcely control herself, she could scarcely sit in her place. It
seemed to her that Varvara Pavlovna knew all, and was mocking at her
in secret triumph. To her relief, Gedeonovsky began to talk to Varvara
Pavlovna, and drew off her attention. Lisa bent over her frame, and
secretly watched her. “That woman,” she thought, “was loved by him.” But
she at once drove away the very thought of Lavretsky; she was afraid of
losing her control over herself, she felt that her head was going round.
Marya Dmitrievna began to talk of music.
“I have heard, my dear,” she began, “that you are a wonderful
performer.”
“It is long since I have played,” replied Varvara Pavlovna, seating
herself without delay at the piano, and running her fingers smartly over
the keys. “Do you wish it?”
“If you will be so kind.”
Varvara Pavlovna played a brilliant and difficult étude by Hertz very
correctly. She had great power and execution.
“Sylphide!” cried Gedeonovsky.
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