So it is with life, which is elastic, and mostly lived at a tension.
Relax that tension, and behold the buoyant temperament rinding roomier
quarters in a straitened confinement than would ever a flaccid one in
the same; and this in defiance of Bonnivard, that fettered Nimrod of the
mountains, whose heart broke early in captivity, and who, nevertheless,
as a matter of fact, did not exist.
The truth is, a pint pot is over-enough to contain the mind of many an
honest vigorous fellow; and it is the mind, rather than the body, which
struggles for elbow-room. Carlo, in his prison, suffered little from
that mere mental horror of circumscription which, to a more sensitive
soul, had been the infinite worst of his doom. He champed, and stamped,
and raged, sure enough; cursed his fate, his impotence, his
restrictions; but all from a cleaner standpoint than the nerves—from one
(no credit to him for that) less constitutionally personal. That he
should be shut from the possibility of helping in a sore pass the little
friend of his love, of his faith, of his adoration—the pretty child who
had needed, never so much as at this moment, the help and protection of
his strong arm—here was the true madness of his condition. And he bore
it hardly, while the fit possessed him, and until physical exhaustion
made room for the little reserves of reason which all the time had been
waiting on its collapse.
Then, suddenly, he became very quiet; an amenable, wicked, dangerous
thing; fed greedily; nursed his muscles; spake his gaolers softly when
they visited him; refrained from asking useless questions to elicit
evasive answers; brooded by the hour together when alone. They treated
him with every consideration; answered practically his demands for
books, paper, pens and ink, wine—for all bodily ameliorations of his lot
which he chose to suggest, short of the means to escape it. There,
only, was there no concession—no response to the request of an insulted
cavalier to be returned the weapons of his honour of which he had been
basely mulcted. His fingers must serve his mouth, he was told, and his
teeth his meat—they were sharp enough. At which he would grin, and
click those white knives together, and return to his brooding.
But not, at last, for long. Very soon he was engaged in exploring his
dungeon, a gloomy cellar, two-thirds of it below the level of the moat,
and lit by a single window, deep-shafted under the massive ceiling. His
search, at first, yielded him no returns but of impenetrable induracy—no
variations, knock where he might, in the echoless irresponsiveness of
dumb-thick walls. Only, with that incessant tap-tapping of his, the
trouble in his brain fell into rhythm, chiming out eternally,
monotonously, the inevitable answer to a fruitless question with which,
from the outset, he had been tormenting himself, and from which, for all
his sickness of its vanity, he could not escape.
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