A Knight of the Nineteenth CenturyRoe, Edward Payson
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A Knight of the Nineteenth Century
Roe, Edward Payson
Fiction
The well-meaning letter, written by the kindly editor, and full of
wholesome advice, cut like a surgeon's knife in some desperate case when
it is a question whether the patient can endure the heroic treatment
necessary. Haldane's stilted and unnatural tales had been projected into
being by such fiery and violent means that they might almost be termed
volcanic in their origin; but the fused mass which was the result,
resembled scoria or cinders rather than fine metal shaped into artistic
forms. Although his manuscripts could have been sold in the world's
market only by the pound, he had believed, or, at least, strongly hoped
otherwise, like so many others, who, with beating hearts, have sent the
children of their brains out to seek their fortunes with no better
results.
The unbroken and ominous silence of the returned manuscript is a severe
disappointment even to those who from safe and happy homes have sought
to gain the public ear, and whose impelling motive toward literature is
scarcely more than an impulse of vanity. But to Haldane the letter,
which in giving the editorial estimate of one of his stories revealed
the fate of all the others, brought far more than a mere disappointment.
It brought despair and the recklessness and demoralization which
inevitably follow. The public regarded him as a depraved, commonplace
vagabond, eminent only in his capacity for evil and meanness, and he now
inclined strongly to the same view of himself. True self-respect he had
never possessed, and his best substitute, pride, at last gave way. He
felt that he was defeated for life, and the best that life could now
offer was a brief career of sensual pleasure. Mrs. Arnot and Laura
Romeyn were so far removed from him as the stars; it was torment to
think of them, and he would blot out their memory and the memory of all
that he had hoped for, with wine and excitement. It seemed to him that
the world said to him with united voice, "Go to the devil," and then
made it impossible for him to do otherwise.
Since he was defeated--since all his proud assurances to his mother that
he would, alone and unaided, regain his lost good name and position in
society, had proved but empty boasts--he would no longer hide the fact
from her, not in the hope of being received at home as a repentant
prodigal (even the thought of such a course was unendurable), but with
the purpose of obtaining from her the means of entering upon a life of
vicious pleasure.
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