A Lady of Quality: Being a Most Curious, Hitherto Unknown History, as Related by Mr. Isaac Bickerstaff but Not Presented to the World of Fashion Through the Pages of The Tatler, and Now for the First Time Written DownBurnett, Frances Hodgson
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A Lady of Quality: Being a Most Curious, Hitherto Unknown History, as Related by Mr. Isaac Bickerstaff but Not Presented to the World of Fashion Through the Pages of The Tatler, and Now for the First Time Written Down
Burnett, Frances Hodgson
Nobility -- Fiction
"If I should head this page I write to you 'Goddess and Queen, and
Empress of my deepest soul,' what more should I be saying than 'My
Love' and 'My Clorinda,' since these express all the soul of man could
crave for or his body desire. The body and soul of me so long for
thee, sweetheart, and sweetest beautiful woman that the hand of Nature
ever fashioned for the joy of mortals, that I have had need to pray
Heaven's help to aid me to endure the passing of the days that lie
between me and the hour which will make me the most strangely,
rapturously, happy man, not in England, not in the world, but in all
God's universe. I must pray Heaven again, and indeed do and will, for
humbleness which shall teach me to remember that I am not deity, but
mere man--mere man--though I shall hold a goddess to my breast and
gaze into eyes which are like deep pools of Paradise, and yet answer
mine with the marvel of such love as none but such a soul could make a
woman's, and so fit to mate with man's. In the heavy days when I was
wont to gaze at you from afar with burning heart, my unceasing anguish
was that even high honour itself could not subdue and conquer the
thoughts which leaped within me even as my pulse leaped, and even as
my pulse could not be stilled unless by death. And one that for ever
haunted--aye, and taunted--me was the image of how your tall, beauteous
body would yield itself to a strong man's arm, and your noble head
with its heavy tower of hair resting upon his shoulder--the centres of
his very being would be thrilled and shaken by the uplifting of such
melting eyes as surely man ne'er gazed within on earth before, and the
ripe and scarlet bow of a mouth so beauteous and so sweet with
womanhood. This beset me day and night, and with such torture that I
feared betimes my brain might reel and I become a lost and ruined
madman. And now--it is no more forbidden me to dwell upon it--nay, I
lie waking at night, wooing the picture to me, and at times I rise
from my dreams to kneel by my bedside and thank God that He hath given
me at last what surely is my own!--for so it seems to me, my love, that
each of us is but a part of the other, and that such forces of Nature
rush to meet together in us, that Nature herself would cry out were we
rent apart. If there were aught to rise like a ghost between us, if
there were aught that could sunder us--noble soul, let us but swear
that it shall weld us but the closer together, and that locked in each
other's arms its blows shall not even make our united strength to
sway. Sweetest lady, your lovely lip will curve in smiles, and you
will say, 'He is mad with his joy--my Gerald' (for never till my heart
stops at its last beat and leaves me still, a dead man, cold upon my
bed, can I forget the music of your speech when you spoke those words,
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