American fiction -- 19th century; Manners and customs -- Fiction
Mason's conviction of his newly made happiness needed no enforcement at
the Doctor's hands. He felt that it would be his own fault if these were
not among the most delightful days of his life. He resolved to give
himself up without stint to his impressions,--utterly to vegetate. His
illness alone would have been a sufficient excuse for a long term of
intellectual laxity; but Mason had other good reasons besides. For the
past three years he had been stretched without intermission on the rack
of duty. Although constantly exposed to hard service, it had been his
fortune never to receive a serious wound; and, until his health broke
down, he had taken fewer holidays than any officer I ever heard of. With
an abundance of a certain kind of equanimity and self-control,--a
faculty of ready self-adaptation to the accomplished fact, in any
direction,--he was yet in his innermost soul a singularly nervous,
over-scrupulous person. On the few occasions when he had been absent
from the scene of his military duties, although duly authorized and
warranted in the act, he had suffered so acutely from the apprehension
that something was happening, or was about to happen, which not to have
witnessed or to have had a hand in would be matter of eternal
mortification, that he can be barely said to have enjoyed his
recreation. The sense of lost time was, moreover, his perpetual
bugbear,--the feeling that precious hours were now fleeting uncounted,
which in more congenial labors would suffice almost for the building of
a monument more lasting than brass. This feeling he strove to propitiate
as much as possible by assiduous reading and study in the interval of
his actual occupations. I cite the fact merely as an evidence of the
uninterrupted austerity of his life for a long time before he fell sick.
I might triple this period, indeed, by a glance at his college years,
and at certain busy months which intervened between this close of his
youth and the opening of the war. Mason had always worked. He was fond
of work to begin with; and, in addition, the complete absence of family
ties had allowed him to follow his tastes without obstruction or
diversion. This circumstance had been at once a great gain to him and a
serious loss. He reached his twenty-seventh year a very accomplished
scholar, as scholars go, but a great dunce in certain social matters. He
was quite ignorant of all those lighter, more evanescent forms of
conviviality attached to being somebody's son, brother, or cousin. At
last, however, as he reminded himself, he was to discover what it was to
be the nephew of somebody's husband. Mrs. Mason was to teach him the
meaning of the adjective _domestic_. It would have been hard to learn it
in a pleasanter way. Mason felt that he was to learn something from his
very idleness, and that he would leave the house a wiser as well as a
better man. It became probable, thanks to that quickening of the
faculties which accompanies the dawning of a sincere and rational
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