American fiction -- 19th century; Manners and customs -- Fiction
"But you don't want the history of my babyhood, I take it. I imagine
that I was a very big, noisy and ugly baby: what's called a 'splendid
infant.' My parents were poor, and, of course, honest. They belonged to
a very different set--or 'sphere', I suppose you call it--from any you
probably know. They were working people. My father was a chemist in a
small way, and I fancy my mother was not above using her hands to turn a
penny. But although I don't remember her, I am sure she was a good,
sound woman; I feel her occasionally in my own sinews. I myself have
been at work all my life, and a very good worker I am, let me tell you.
I'm not patient, as I imagine your brother to be--although I have more
patience than you might suppose--but I'm plucky. If you think I'm
over-egotistical, remember 'twas you began it. I don't know whether I'm
clever, and I don't much care; that word is used only by unpractical
people. But I'm clear-headed, and inquisitive, and enthusiastic. That's
as far as I can describe myself. I don't know anything about my
character. I simply suspect I'm a pretty good fellow. I don't know
whether I'm grave or gay, lively or severe. I don't know whether I'm
high-tempered or low-tempered. I don't believe I'm 'high-toned.' I fancy
I'm good-natured enough, inasmuch as I'm not nervous. I should not be at
all surprised to discover I was prodigiously conceited; but I'm afraid
the discovery wouldn't cut me down, much. I'm desperately hard to snub,
I know. Oh, you would think me a great brute if you knew me. I should
hesitate to say whether I am of a loving turn. I know I'm desperately
tired of a number of persons who are very fond of me; I'm afraid I'm
ungrateful. Of course as a man speaking to a woman, there's nothing for
it but to say I'm selfish; but I hate to talk about such windy
abstractions. In the way of positive facts: I'm not educated. I know no
Greek and very little Latin. But I can honestly say that first and last
I have read a great many books--and, thank God, I have a memory! And I
have some tastes, too. I'm very fond of music. I have a good old voice
of my own: that I can't help knowing; and I'm not one to be bullied
about pictures. Is that enough? I'm conscious of an utter inability to
say anything to the point. To put myself in a nutshell, I suppose I'm
simply a working man; I have his virtues and I have his defects. I'm a
very common fellow."
"Do you call yourself a very common fellow because you really believe
yourself to be one, or because you are weakly tempted to disfigure your
rather flattering catalogue with a great final blot?"
Public-domain text, read in full here on John Shaqi.
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