A Lear of the Steppes, etc.Turgenev, Ivan Sergeevich
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A Lear of the Steppes, etc.
Turgenev, Ivan Sergeevich
Russia -- Social life and customs -- Fiction; Turgenev, Ivan Sergeevich, 1818-1883 -- Translations into English
When I had finished, I glanced at her. Her head leaning
on the back of her low chair and her arms crossed on her bosom, she was
still looking as intently at me.
I don’t know why, my heart suddenly began to throb.
‘What have you done to me?’ she said in a slow voice.
‘What?’ I articulated in confusion.
‘Yes, what have you done to me?’ she repeated.
‘You mean to say,’ I began; ‘why did I persuade you to read such
books?’
She rose without speaking, and went out of the room. I looked after her.
On the doorway she stopped and turned to me.
‘I love you,’ she said; ‘that’s what you have done to me.’
The blood rushed to my head.…
‘I love you, I am in love with you,’ repeated Vera.
She went out and shut the door after her. I will not try to describe
what passed within me then. I remember I went out into the garden, made
my way into a thicket, leaned against a tree, and how long I stood
there, I could not say. I felt faint and numb; a feeling of bliss came
over my heart with a rush from time to time.… No, I cannot speak of
that. Priemkov’s voice roused me from my stupor; they had sent to tell
him I had come: he had come home from shooting and was looking for
me. He was surprised at finding me alone in the garden, without a hat
on, and he led me into the house. ‘My wife’s in the drawing-room,’ he
observed; ‘let’s go to her.’ You can imagine my sensations as I stepped
through the doorway of the drawing-room. Vera was sitting in the
corner, at her embroidery frame; I stole a glance at her, and it was a
long while before I raised my eyes again. To my amazement, she seemed
composed; there was no trace of agitation in what she said, nor in the
sound of her voice. At last I brought myself to look at her. Our eyes
met.… She faintly blushed, and bent over her canvas. I began to watch
her. She seemed, as it were, perplexed; a cheerless smile hung about
her lips now and then.
Priemkov went out. She suddenly raised her head and in a rather loud
voice asked me--‘What do you intend to do now?’
I was taken aback, and hurriedly, in a subdued voice, answered, that I
intended to do the duty of an honest man--to go away, ‘for,’ I added,
‘I love you, Vera Nikolaevna, you have probably seen that long ago.’
She bent over her canvas again and seemed to ponder.
‘I must talk with you,’ she said; ‘come this evening after tea to our
little house … you know, where you read _Faust_.’
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