A Life for a Life, Volume 1 (of 3)Craik, Dinah Maria Mulock
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A Life for a Life, Volume 1 (of 3)
Craik, Dinah Maria Mulock
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And so, I trust the whole Rockmount family are happy, and fulfilling
their destiny--in the which, little as I thought it, when I stood
watching the solitary girl in the sofa corner, Max Urquhart has been
made more an instrument than he ever dreamed of, or than they are likely
ever to be aware.
The matter was beginning to fade out of my memory, as one of the many
episodes which are always occurring to create passing interests in a
doctor's life, when I received an invitation to dine at Rockmount.
I dislike accepting casual invitations. Primarily, on principle--the
bread-and-salt doctrine of the East, which considers hospitality
neither as a business nor an amusement, but as a sacred rite, entailing
permanent responsibility to both host and guest. When I sit by a man's
fireside, or (Treherne _loquitur_) "put my feet under his mahogany," I
feel bound not merely to give him back the same quantity and quality of
meat and drink, but to regard myself as henceforth his friend and guest,
under obligations closer and more binding than one would submit to
from the world in general. It is, therefore, incumbent on me to be
very choice in those with whom I put myself under such bonds and
obligations.
My secondary reasons are so purely personal, that they will not bear
enlarging upon. Most people of solitary life, and conscious of many
peculiarities, take small pleasure in general society, otherwise to
go out into the world, to rub up one's intellect, enlarge one's social
sympathies, enjoy the commingling of wit, learning, beauty, and even
folly, would be a pleasant thing--like sitting to watch a pyrotechnic
display, knowing all the while, that when it was ended one could come
back to see one's heart in the perennial warmth of one's own fireside.
If not,--better stay away:--for one is inclined to turn cynical, and
perceive nothing but the smell of the gunpowder, the wrecks of the
catherine-wheels, and the empty shells of the Roman-candles.
The Rockmount invitation was rather friendly than formal, and it
came from an old man. The feeble hand-writing, the all but illegible
signature, weighed with me, in spite of myself. I had no definite
reason to refuse his politeness, which is not likely to extend beyond an
occasional dinner-party, of the sort given hereabouts periodically, to
middle aged respectable neighbours--in which category may be supposed to
come Max Urquhart, M.D. I accepted the courtesy and invitation.
Yet, let me confess to thee, compassionate unknown, the ridiculous
hesitation with which I walked up to this friendly door, from which I
should certainly have walked away again, but for my dislike to break any
engagement, however trivial, or even a promise made only to myself. Let
me own the morbid dread with which I contemplated four mortal hours to
be spent in the society of a dozen friendly people, made doubly sociable
by the influence of a good dinner, and the best of wines.
Public-domain text, read in full here on John Shaqi.
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