My Theodora! Some day, when she comes to read a few pages which I seal up to-night, marking them with her name, and “To be delivered to her after my death,” she will understand how I have loved her. Otherwise, it never could have been found out, even by her--for I am not a demonstrative man. Only my wife would have known it. In case this letter and those other letters do reach you, they will then be your last mementos of me. Read them and burn them; they are solely meant for you. Should all go well, so that they become needless, we will, as I said, burn them together, read or unread, as you choose. You shall do it with your own hand, sitting by me, at our own fireside. _Our_ fireside. The thought of it--the terror of losing it, makes me almost powerless to write on. Will you ever find out how I love you, my love--my love! I begin by reminding you that I have been long aware your name is not properly Johnston. You told me yourself that the _t_ had been inserted of late years. That you are not an aristocratic, but a plebeian family. My thankfulness at learning this, you will understand afterwards. That cathedral clock--how it has startled me! Striking twelve with the same tongue as it did twenty years ago. Were I superstitious, I might fancy I heard in the coffee-room below, the clink of glasses, the tune of “Glorious Apollo,” and the “Bravo,” of that uproarious voice. The town is hardly the least altered. Except that I came in by railway instead of by coach, it might be the very same Salisbury on that very same winter's night--the quaint, quiet English town that I stood looking at from this same window--its streets shining with rain, and its lights glimmering here and there through the general gloom. How I stared, boy-like, till _he_ came behind and slapped me on the shoulder. But I have a few things to tell you before I tell you the history of that night. Let me delay it as long as I can. You know about my father and mother, and how they both died when Dallas and I were children. We had no near kindred; we had to take care of ourselves--or rather he took care of me; he was almost as good as a father to me, from the time he was twelve years old. Let me say a word or two more about my brother Dallas. If ever there was a perfect character on this earth, he was one. Every creature who knew him thought the same. I doubt not the memory of him still lingers in those old cloisters of St. Mary and St. Salvador, where he spent eight years, studying for the ministry. I feel sure there is not a lad who was at college with him--greyheaded lads they would be now, grave professors, or sober ministers of the Kirk, with country manses, wives, and families--not one of them but would say as I say, if you spoke to him of Dallas Urquhart.