A Life for a Life, Volume 3 (of 3)Craik, Dinah Maria Mulock
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A Life for a Life, Volume 3 (of 3)
Craik, Dinah Maria Mulock
Fiction
Your last letter came. Happily, it reached me the very morning when the
crisis which I had been for weeks expecting, occurred. I had it in my
pocket all the time I stood in that room before those men,--but I had
best relate from the beginning.
You are aware that any complaints respecting the officers of this gaol,
or questions concerning its internal management, are laid before the
visiting justices. Thus, after the governor's hint, on every board day,
I prepared myself for a summons. At length it came; ostensibly for a
very trivial matter--some relaxation of discipline which I had ordered
and been counteracted in. But my conduct had never been called into
question before, and I knew what it implied. The very form of it--"The
governor's compliments, and he requests Doctor Urquhart's attendance in
the board-room;"--instead of "Doctor, come up to my room and talk the
matter over," was sufficient indication of what was impending.
I found present, besides the governor and chaplain, an unusual number of
magistrates. These, who are not always or necessarily gentlemen, stared
at me as if I had been some strange beast, all the time I was giving
my brief evidence about the breach of regulations complained of. It was
soon settled, for I had been careful to keep within the letter of
the law, and I made a motion to take leave, when one of the justices
requested me to "wait a bit, they hadn't done with me yet."
These sort of men, low-born--not that that is any disgrace, but a glory,
unless accompanied with a low nature--and "dressed in a little brief
authority," one often meets with here; I was well used to deal with,
them, and to their dealings with the like of me--a poor professional,
whose annual income was little more than they would expend, carelessly,
upon one of their splendid "feeds." But, until lately, among my co-mates
in office, I had been both friendly and popular. Now, they took their
tone from the rest, and even the governor and-the chaplain preserved
towards me a rigid silence. You do not know our old mess phrase of
being "sent to Coventry." If you did, you would understand how those ten
minutes that, according to my orders, I sat aloof from the board, while
other business was proceeding, were not the pleasantest possible.
Men amongst men grow hard, are liable to evil passions, fits of pride,
hatred, and revenge, that are probably unfamiliar to you sweet women. It
was well I had your letter in my pocket. Besides, there is something
in coming to the crisis of a great misfortune which braces up a man's
nerves to meet it. So, when the governor, turning round in his always
courteous tone, said the board requested a few minutes' conversation
with me, I could rise and stand steady, to meet whatever shape of hard
fortune lay before me.
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