A Life for a Life, Volume 3 (of 3)Craik, Dinah Maria Mulock
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A Life for a Life, Volume 3 (of 3)
Craik, Dinah Maria Mulock
Fiction
--Max here crept down into the berth to look for me--and I returned with
him and left him resting comfortably on the quarter-deck, promising not
to stir for a whole hour. I have to take care of him still; but, as I
told him, the sea winds are bringing; some of its natural brownness back
to his dear old face:--and I shall not consider him "interesting" any
more.
During the three months that Max was in prison, I never saw him. Indeed,
we never once met from the day we said good-bye in my father's presence,
till the day that----But I will continue my story systematically.
All those three months Max was ill; not dangerously--for he said so, and
I could believe him. It would have gone very hard with me if I could
not have relied on him in this, as in everything. Nevertheless, it was a
bitter time, and now I almost wonder how I bore it. Now, when I am ready
and willing for everything, except the one thing, which, thank God, I
shall never have to bear again--separation.
The day before he came out of prison, Max wrote to me a long and serious
letter. Hitherto, both our letters had been filled up with trivialities,
such as might amuse him and cheer me, we deferred all plans till he
was better. My private thoughts, if I had any, were not clear even to
myself, until Max's letter.
It was a very sad letter. Three months' confinement in one cell, with
one hour's daily walk round a circle in a walled yard--prisoner's
labour, for he took to making mats, saying it amused him; prisoner's
rules and fare--no wonder that towards the end even his brave heart gave
way.
He broke down utterly. Otherwise he never would have written to me as
he did--bidding me farewell, _me!_ At first I was startled and shocked;
then I laid down the letter and smiled--a very sad sort of smile of
course, but still it was a smile. The idea that Max and I could part,
or desire to do so, under any human circumstances, seemed one of those
amusingly impossible things that one would never stop to argue in the
least, either with one's self or any other person. That we loved one
another, and therefore some day should probably be married, but that
anyhow we belonged to one another till death, were facts at once as
simple, natural, and immutable, as that the sun stood in the heavens or
that the grass was green.
I wrote back to Max that night.
Not that I did it in any hurry, or impulse of sudden feeling. I took
many hours to consider both what I should say, and in what form I should
put it. Also, I had doubts whether it would not be best for him, if he
accepted the generous offer of Mr. Thorley's son-in-law, made with full
knowledge of all circumstances, to go first to America alone. But, think
how I would, my thoughts all returned and settled in the same track, in
which was written one clear truth; that after God and the right--which
means all claims of justice and conscience--the first duty of any two
who love truly is towards one another.
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