"No; I should be the last person to blame you," said Enid very gently,
"because I know what love is myself;" and then the clear color flamed
all over her fair face as it had flamed in Cynthia's.
Cynthia bit her lip.
"You do not think," she said, with the impetuous abruptness which might
have been ungraceful in a less beautiful woman, but was never unbecoming
to her, "that because I love him I want to take him away from those who
have a better right than I to his love? I learned to care for him
unawares; I had given him my love in secret long before--before he knew.
He knows it now; I cannot help his knowing. But I am not ashamed. I
should be ashamed if I thought that I could make him unfaithful to you."
Enid looked at her, and admired. Cynthia's generosity was taking her
heart by storm. But for the moment she could not speak, and Cynthia went
on rapidly.
"You do not know what he has been to me. I have had trouble and
misfortune in my life, and I have had kindness and good friends also;
but he--he was almost the first--he and you together, Miss Vane,
although you do not know what I mean perhaps. Do you remember meeting a
ragged child on the road outside your park gates, and speaking kindly to
her and giving her your only shilling? That was myself!"
"You," cried Enid--"you that little gipsy girl! I remember that I could
not understand why I was sent away." Then she stopped short and looked
aside, fearing lest she had said something that might hurt.
"I know," said Cynthia. "Your aunt--Miss Vane--was shocked to find you
talking to me, for she knew who I was. She sent you back to the house;
but before you went you asked Mr. Lepel to be good to me. He
promised--and he kept his word. Although I did not know it until long
afterwards, it was he who sent me to school for many years, and had me
trained and cared for in every possible way. I did not even know his
name; but I treasured up my memories of that one afternoon when I saw
him at Beechfield all through the years that I spent at school. I knew
your name; and I kept the shilling that you gave me, in remembrance of
your goodness. I have worn it ever since. See--it is round my neck now,
and I shall never part from it. And do you think that, after all these
years of gratitude and tender memory of your kindness, I would do you a
wrong so terrible as that of which Mrs. Vane accuses me? I would die
first! I love Hubert; but, if I may say so, I love you, Miss Vane, too,
humbly and from a distance--and I will never willingly give you a
moment's pain. I will be guided by what you wish me to do. If you tell
me to leave the house this day, I will go, and never see him more. You
have the right to command, and I will obey."
"But why," said Enid slowly, "did you not think of all this earlier?
Why, when you were older, did you not remember that you--you had no
right----"
She could not finish her sentence.
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