"I hope I haven't troubled you very much," said Tim, gently. "I've been in many times, but I've not been myself, you know, and could not trust what was here to speak. It wasn't me, Mrs Pellet, ma'am," he continued, turning himself from Jared, so that it should only be a tender-hearted mother who read his quivering lips and tears; "it wasn't me, but a poor broken-down wretch, who could not be man enough to fight against his troubles. You always said I ought to have been a woman, ma'am; and you were right--quite right. But I am better now, ma'am, and I shall be at work next week. Poor people can't afford to be sorrowful, ma'am. Your rich folk can be in mourning every day, outside and inside, ma'am; we poor people can only do that once a week. I couldn't sit on the board this week for thinking, ma'am. Come sorrow, one must fight it out--come hard times the same. But one's as much as such a man as me can bear." Mrs Jared sighed, and worked on busily at some little domestic repair done with needle and thread. "Had you not better sit down, Mr Ruggles?" she said. "No, ma'am," said Tim; "it is time I was gone." Then the room was once more very still, so that Jared almost started as Tim spoke again very slowly, for his thoughts were back at the organ-loft, and the question was troubling him once more, "What shall I do?" "Week to-morrow since we buried her, ma'am--like my own child, ma'am, and not a soul to say good-bye to her but me--no father--no mother. Ah! it was cruel, cruel! and how those whom God has given children can leave them in strange hands to pine away and die, is more than I can understand. I would not own that she was so ill, ma'am, not to a soul. I told myself it wasn't so; and all the time it was. `Grim death won't come and take that gentle, loving-hearted girl away, Tim,' I said, `when there's your rough worthless old carcase close at hand.' But that's what he does, ma'am; he's idle though he's busy, is death; and to save blunting that scythe of his, he goes on mowing down the sweet, gentle, bright-coloured tender flowers, and leaves the dry, harsh, old stalks like me to be snapped off by the wind. "But I knew it was coming, ma'am, faster and faster; and yet I couldn't help thinking as there might be a change for the better. To have seen her, you might have hoped she was getting well, for she seemed to be easier towards the last, and for two or three days the pain was as good as gone, 'cept when her cough troubled her, and nothing wouldn't stop that a bit. Never complained neither, she didn't, but kept up dressed and about to the very last. I couldn't help knowing that she was bad; but I didn't think it was quite so bad; it's a sort of thing that you can't seem to believe, ma'am. It won't come home to you until it's too late, and then--then--then--" Tim's voice grew very husky here, and, as he broke off, his hand covered his eyes once more.