City and town life -- Fiction; Urban poor -- Fiction
"Does seem such a thing," said Tim to himself, "to see any one suffering
when you can't do anything to help them. There's her poor little cough
getting worse and worse, and them fits coming on, and I can't help her a
bit. It's dreadful, that it is. If one has to rub, or hold, or lift,
or do something, it don't seem half so bad; but to stand and do nothing
but look on is the worst itself. Never saw such a child as she is,
though; and it makes me shiver when she gets looking in that far-off way
of hers, as if she could see more than any one else. Takes her stuff
without a word; but I'd sooner see her kick and cry out, and then have a
good laugh after, when I talk rubbish about trimming the lamp. I don't
know what it's a coming to--for she ain't like no other child--ain't
like a child at all, that she ain't."
It was not once that Tim would mutter in that fashion over his work, but
often and often; and in spite of his words, he did know in his heart
what was coming, though, stitching away there upon his board, early and
late, he tried to shut his eyes to the ray of light that fell upon
them--a ray of pale wondrous light, as from another world; light which
shone with a cold lustre in upon his heart, to tell him that something
must soon come to pass.
For little Pine had of late grown quieter day by day; dull and heavy,
too, at times, falling asleep in her chair, and more than once upon the
bare floor, where Tim had found her, and gently raised her head to place
beneath it the list-tied roll of newly-cut cloth for a pair of trousers,
and then covered her with his coat.
As the days lengthened, a hectic red settled in her little cheeks, and a
cough came on to rack her chest; when, night after night, would Tim
creep out of bed to give her lozenges and various infallible sweets
which he had purchased to allay the irritating tickle that kept her
awake hour after hour.
"'Pon my word," Tim would say, "I don't think I should take more notice
of that child if she was my very own; but somehow I can't help this
here."
And it was plain enough that Tim could not help "this here;" and, intent
as he seemed upon his work by day, his thoughts were fixed upon the poor
child, whom he watched hour after hour unnoticed by his domestic tyrant.
"I don't like it," muttered Tim; "it's all rules of contrary. That
there cough ought to make her pale and poorly, and it don't, for it
makes her little cheeks red, and her eyes bright; and it ain't nat'ral
for her to not eat nothing one time, and to eat savage another; and I'm
'most afraid to say anything to her, because she's so old and deep."
"Am I going to die?" said the child one day, suddenly, as she left off
work to gaze up earnestly in Tim's face.
"Eh! what? Going to which?" exclaimed Tim, startled.
"Am I going to die, and go away?" said the child again.
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