And then she leant her elbows on the dressing-table and lost herself in
a delicious reverie; but presently a cloud passed over her brow.
Supposing Ferdinand were unable to prove his innocence, what would she
do? Had she the courage to marry him with a stain upon his name and
character; and even if she had the courage, would it be right for her so
to do? Besides, she could not marry him whilst he retained his
pseudonym, and neither in Palestine nor England could they be united
under the name of Montella. Looking into the future, she foresaw
difficulties so immense as to be almost insuperable, but she could not
bear the thought of ever having to give up the man she loved. No
sacrifice would be too great so far as she personally was concerned; but
she hated the thought of grieving the one to whom she owed more than she
could ever repay. It was not in her nature to act clandestinely or to
rebel against authority, especially when she knew that that authority
was worthy of esteem. So that if it came to breaking with either Lady
Montella or her lover, the struggle would be keen and bitter; for
whichever way it went she would lose a friend. She could only hope that
what she dreaded might never come to pass, and that her lover would
return with his honour unimpeached. Once he were able to reclaim his
forfeited rights, all impedimenta to their marriage would be removed.
Her foster-aunt would not withhold her consent without due cause.
“Haifa seems to agree with you better than it does with us,” her mother
remarked, when in the cool of early morning she betook herself to the
little white bungalow which the Emanuels inhabited. “You are looking
splendid, Raie—different to our pasty-looking, freckled Harriet.”
Raie was sorry for her sister, who, since the dissolution of her
engagement with the young man who had cruelly jilted her some months
before they left England, had come in for an unpalatable number of
home-truths.
“Harriet cannot help her freckles, mother,” she rejoined, taking up the
cudgels in her defence. “I think she finds the climate trying, and I
know she does not like the food.”
Mrs. Emanuel tossed her head in impatience.
“Nonsense!” she exclaimed, with anger. “She doesn’t give the food a
chance; it is all I can do to get her to eat at all. Ever since her
engagement was broken off, she has done nothing but mope and pine for
Harry Levi. She has lost all her good looks, and she takes no trouble
over her appearance; and I’m sure the fellow isn’t worth a thought. I’m
ashamed of her, and that’s the truth; I never thought she would develop
into a crotchety old maid.”
The girl was silent, scarcely knowing what to say. Thinking of her own
lover, she felt more sympathy for her unfortunate sister than she dare
own. But when Harriet made her appearance a little while later, she
could not help experiencing a shock. Was it really love—or the lack of
it—that could make such a change?
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