A moment of madness, and other stories (vol. 1 of 3)Marryat, Florence
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A moment of madness, and other stories (vol. 1 of 3)
Marryat, Florence
English fiction -- 19th century; Short stories, English
We cantered for a mile or more, and the action of the Arab seemed very
perfect. I made an observation to this effect, when, having left the
running horse-keepers far behind us, we at last drew rein, and found
ourselves alone. But still my remark received no answer, and I was
determined to make her speak.
‘Am I intruding too much upon my privileges, Miss Anstruther, in
venturing an opinion on the subject? Even a groom is sometimes permitted,
you know, to pass his judgment on the new acquisitions to his mistress’s
stables.’
‘Don’t, Captain Norton; oh, pray, don’t.’
The words were uttered so hurriedly that I scarcely understood them;
but when I looked into her face for an explanation, I saw that she was
crying. Now I cannot bear to see a woman cry. They may do anything they
like with me—tease, bully, even insult me—so long as they keep their eyes
dry; but Miss Anstruther’s tears were falling fast upon the bosom of her
riding-habit.
I could not endure to think that she might be annoyed with me and my
bantering; perhaps unhappy at having to live at Mushin-Bunda, for it is a
very dull and uninteresting place; and I said the first thing which came
into my head.
‘My dear girl, what _is_ the matter with you?’
I suppose the question was stupid or ill-timed, or perhaps I don’t
understand the ways of women, for instead of doing Miss Anstruther any
good, it changed her silent tears into such a storm of grief that I was
quite alarmed. I have often seen Janie cry (indeed, my little woman is
rather fond of working her hydraulics on very small occasions), and
I have been the unwilling witness at times to a good many tears from
various members of the fair sex; but never in all my life have I seen
such a tempest of passionate rain as poured from Margaret Anstruther’s
eyes this evening. She sobbed so violently and with so little restraint,
that I began to be alarmed for the effect of her emotion, both on her
horse and herself, and begged and entreated her to be calm, when all of a
sudden, to my astonishment, the storm passed as quickly as it had arisen;
and, except for her heaving bosom and sobbing breath, she was herself
again.
‘What must you think of me?’ she inquired, turning her liquid eyes, still
swimming in tears, upon my countenance. ‘I must have seemed so rude, so
ungrateful to you both.’
‘Think!’ I stammered, remembering all I have thought of her conduct
during the last few days; ‘I don’t think anything, Miss Anstruther; only
I am afraid you cannot be happy with us or here.’
‘Oh, it is not that!’ she exclaimed earnestly. ‘Neither place nor people
can make any difference to me. Dear Janie is everything that is kind;
and you—you have been very patient with me—but nothing can lift off the
humiliation, the degradation, that I feel in being here at all.’
‘Degradation!’ I repeated, rather nettled at the term.
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