A moment of madness, and other stories (vol. 1 of 3)Marryat, Florence
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A moment of madness, and other stories (vol. 1 of 3)
Marryat, Florence
English fiction -- 19th century; Short stories, English
‘Yes, degradation!’ she said emphatically; ‘else why am I in this
country? what is my place in India? I have an uncle here, it is true;
but so have I uncles in England. Why was Colonel Anstruther chosen by my
guardians as the one most fitted to offer me a home? Tell me that.’
‘He is rich, and a bachelor,’ I commenced; ‘and living alone, naturally—’
‘It is not so,’ she interrupted me; ‘and you know it, Captain Norton. It
is because he lives in a country where women are scarce, and men have few
opportunities of choice; where a girl may pick up a husband who might
remain for ever unmarried at home; where we are looked at on arrival
much as though we were articles of sale, and often purchased for motives
unworthy the name of love or honour or esteem. You cannot deny it,
because it is true, and I am wretched;’ and with this Lionne buried her
burning face in her hands.
‘But I can deny it!’ I exclaimed; ‘for if this is the case with some
girls sent out to this country, it is not with all. Look at your cousin
Janie; surely you would never speak of her in that strain.’
‘Janie came out to the care of her sister, her nearest relation,’ was the
low reply.
‘And you have come out to your relations, Miss Anstruther; to friends who
have but one wish, to see you happy and comfortable, and who would never
dream of imputing such motives to an action which—’
‘Did you not dream of it?’ she retorted quickly, as she turned her
glowing glance upon me. ‘What was the question that you put to Janie the
second evening of my arrival. “If she doesn’t want to get married, what
is she here for?” I ought not to have heard it, perhaps, but you spoke
so loudly that it was impossible to avoid doing so. And do you think I
didn’t feel it?’
She spoke so decidedly, and yet so mournfully, her eyes flashed with such
proud indignant fire, whilst her figure seemed bowed beneath the weight
of her humiliation, that I had nothing to say for myself; and having
attempted some stammering reply, which ended very abruptly, found that
she was speaking again, though more to herself than me, and felt myself
constrained to be silent and attend.
‘I saw it from the first day I landed,’ she went on sadly. ‘I perceived
in Mrs Grant’s insinuations, and the remarks of her lady friends, that
I was supposed to have been sent out to India with but one object—to
get a husband; and it sickened me. But when I came here,’ she added in a
lower voice, ‘I hoped it would be different; I hoped that you and Janie,
being so lately married, would look on love and marriage in a holier
light—as something too far removed from earthly calculations to be made
the subject of mere speculation or convenience.’
‘Oh, Miss Anstruther, forgive me!’ I exclaimed.
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