A moment of madness, and other stories (vol. 1 of 3)Marryat, Florence
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A moment of madness, and other stories (vol. 1 of 3)
Marryat, Florence
English fiction -- 19th century; Short stories, English
‘I am. I have long intended going to Haldabad on a shooting excursion,
which may detain me for two or three months. Inadvertently almost I have
delayed it, your visit and Janie’s illness coming in the way; but now
I am ready to start at twelve hours’ notice, if need be—indeed, I am
anxious to be gone.’
‘And what will Janie say to that, Captain Norton?’ she demanded in a
lowered voice.
‘At this moment I believe that my absence will affect Janie less than
your departure would do. She is very much attached to you, and she feels
the comfort of a woman’s presence. Added to which, Margaret, I am in
a great measure responsible to your uncle for your proceedings, and
I shall not feel easy if you leave my house for a stranger’s without
previously asking his consent. He will imagine I have proved unfaithful
to my trust. Do you wish others to think as badly of me as I do of
myself?’
As I uttered these words I dropped my voice almost to a whisper, but she
heard them plainly.
‘Oh, let me go! let me go!’ she exclaimed wildly. ‘It will be better, far
better, for all of us. I cannot, indeed I cannot, remain here; the air of
this place stifles me.’
‘I have made you despise me,’ I said despondently.
‘No; oh no!’ and her dark eyes were fixed upon me for a moment with an
expression which I would have kept in them for ever; ‘but—you _know_,
Captain Norton, that it is best—that, in fact, we _must part_.’
‘I do know it,’ I replied; ‘and therefore I am going. By this time
to-morrow I hope to have made all necessary preparations, and to be
ready for a start. Meanwhile you will stay here—I know you will,
because I ask you—to comfort and look after Janie until you receive your
uncle’s consent to go to Madras. And when it arrives, and you have left
Mushin-Bunda, I will return to it.’
‘And we shall never, never meet again!’ she said, in a voice so broken as
to be almost inarticulate.
I dared not answer her; had I spoken, I must have poured out all my heart.
‘You have consented?’ were my next words.
‘Yes, since you think it best; only I am sorry to be the means of driving
you from home.’
‘If you are—though you have no need to be—will you give me one
recompense, Margaret?’
She lifted her eyes inquiringly; speech seemed almost lost to her.
‘Say you forgive me for what I told you yesterday. I have sorely
reproached myself since.’
She stretched out her hand, and met mine in a grasp which, though firm,
was cold as that of death.
‘Then we part friends?’
It was again myself who spoke; she nodded her head in acquiescence, and I
felt my prudence evaporating, and rushed from the apartment.
Written down, this interview seems nothing; but to those who feel as we
do, the misery of years may be compressed into an hour; and that small
room, for both of us, was worse than a torture-chamber.
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