A moment of madness, and other stories (vol. 2 of 3)Marryat, Florence
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A moment of madness, and other stories (vol. 2 of 3)
Marryat, Florence
English fiction -- 19th century; Short stories, English
‘Perhaps Miss Lacy is tired,’ suggested the deep voice of Bruce Armytage.
I had been going to plead for a brief respite, but at that sound the
desire for repose fled, and without a look in his direction I returned to
the instrument and began to play the dance they had asked for. But I had
not been so occupied long before I became aware that some one amongst
them continued to hover about the piano, and felt by intuition that it
was Bruce Armytage. At that discovery my fingers flew faster and more
gaily, and I regarded the notes before me with a fixed smile, whilst, in
order to keep up my courage, I kept repeating to myself: ‘He deserted me:
he left me for no fault of mine. My father and mother died, and he never
came near me in my sorrow. He is fickle, base, dishonourable—unworthy of
regard.’ I tried to set the notes of the waltz that I was playing to the
words, ‘Fickle, base, dishonourable!’ but they refused to be so matched,
and only seemed to repeat instead, ‘I loved him, I loved him, I loved
him!’ and then a blurred mist came before my eyes, and I had to play from
memory; for Bruce Armytage had taken up his station at the back of the
piano and was looking me full in the face.
‘It is a long time since we met, Miss Lacy,’ he remarked presently, but
in so low a voice that had my hearing not been sharpened by anger at his
daring to address me, I do not think I should have caught the words.
‘Do you think so?’ I answered carelessly, for I felt that I must say
something.
‘How can you ask? Have the last five years passed so pleasantly as to
leave no evidence of the flight of time?’
‘Considering,’ I replied, panting with indignation at what appeared to
me such thorough indifference to my feelings, ‘considering, Mr Armytage,
that during the years you speak of I have lost both my dear parents, I
should think you might have spared me the allusion.’
‘Forgive me. I did not mean to wound you. But if the loss of your parents
is the only loss you have to regret during those five years, you are
happier than some, Miss Lacy. Death is natural, but there are griefs (the
loss of love and hope, for instance) almost too unnatural to be borne.’
How dared he, how dared he—he who had treated me in so cruel and
unnatural a manner himself, who had but just plighted his faith afresh
to my friend—quietly stand there, looking me in the face with his dark,
searching eyes, and taunt me with the barrenness of the life which he
had made sterile? Much as I had loved him—much as I feared I loved him
still—I could have stood up at that moment and denounced him to them all
as a traitor and a coward. But I thought of Amy, dear little innocent,
confiding Amy, and I was silent.
‘_I_ have not lost them,’ I answered him, quietly. ‘Therefore I cannot
sympathise with your allusion. The death of my dear parents was more than
sufficient trouble for me; all else of solace that this world can give me
is mine.’
‘Do you mean to tell me—’ he commenced quickly.
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