A moment of madness, and other stories (vol. 3 of 3)Marryat, Florence
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A moment of madness, and other stories (vol. 3 of 3)
Marryat, Florence
English fiction -- 19th century; Short stories, English
Hitherto my mother had taught me herself, and very sorry I was to give up
those delightful lessons, which were rendered so easy by the trouble she
took to explain them to me; but her time was too much taken up with her
baby to allow her to devote sufficient to me. Besides, I was now eleven
years old, growing a great lad, and able to take every advantage of the
education afforded me at Mr Murray’s school.
My old friend, lame Jemmy, who had spent many a pleasant week at
Lilyfields meanwhile, was still there to welcome me back and make me feel
less of a stranger; and my father took away the last sting of the new
arrangement by buying me a sturdy pony on which to ride backwards and
forwards every week to see my mother and him.
But the greatest pang which I experienced was parting, even for a few
days, with baby Violet. I cried over her so much, indeed, that I made my
mother cry too, as she asked God to bless the boy who had been a true
son to her. I was very glad to think she loved me so much, for I loved
her dearly in return; but as I galloped back to Lilyfields every Saturday
afternoon, my thoughts were all for the dimpled baby sister whom I would
carry about in my arms, or roll with amongst the newly-mown grass, rather
than with those who had proved themselves to be real parents to me,—she
from the commencement of her knowledge of me, and he from the date of his
knowing her. It was my mother alone I had to bless for it all. But I had
grown accustomed to happiness by this time, and took it as my due.
My parents were very proud of their little daughter, who grew into a
lovely child, but she did not seem to afford them as much pleasure
as pride. Sometimes I detected my mother looking at her as we romped
together, with more pain in the expression of her face than anything
else. Once she caught her suddenly to her bosom, and kissed her golden
curls with passion, exclaiming,—
‘Oh, my heart, if I were to go, what would become of you?—what _would_
become of you?’
I was still too young to grasp the full meaning of her words, but I
knew my mother meant that if she died, no one would take such good care
of Violet as she had done. So I marched up to her confidently, with the
assurance that _I_ would take that responsibility upon my own shoulders.
‘Don’t be afraid, mamma! As soon as I am a man, I mean to get a house all
to myself, and the best rooms in it shall be for Violet.’
She looked at me with her sweet, earnest, searching gaze for a moment,
and then folded me in one embrace with her own child.
‘Father’s boy!’ she murmured, caressingly over me—‘father’s brave, loving
boy! No, Charlie, I will not be afraid! If it be God’s will that I should
go, I will trust Violet to father and to you.’
* * * * *
Meanwhile my father was a very contented man. He had undergone much the
same change as myself, and forgotten, in the sunshine that now surrounded
him, all the miserable years he had spent in that once desolate mansion.
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