"Papa has been so good to me, you do not know. I shall never forget it
--nor will Ernest. Ernest thought he would stand in the way of our
marriage, but he did not. He said I must choose for myself, as he had
done when he married my dearest mother; that I had been a good girl to
him, and a good daughter would make a good wife; also that a good wife
would not cease to be a good daughter because she was married--
especially living close at hand, as we shall always live: Ernest has
promised it.
"Thus, you see, nobody I love will lose me at all, nor shall I forget
them: I should hate myself if it were possible. I shall be none the
less a daughter to my father--none the less a friend to you. I will
never, never forget you, my dear!" (here the writing became blurred, as
if large drops had fallen on the paper while she wrote.) "It is twelve
o'clock, and I must bid you good-night--and God bless you ever and
ever! The last time I sign my dear old name (except once) is thus to
you.
"Your faithful and loving friend,
"Helen Cardross."
Thus she had written, and thus he sat and read--these two, who had
been and were so dear to one another. Perhaps the good angels, who
watch over human lives and human destinies, might have looked with pity
upon both.
As for Helen's father, and Helen herself too, if (as some severe judges
may say) they erred in suffering themselves to be thus easily deceived
--in believing a man upon little more than his own testimony, and in
loving him as bad men are sometimes loved, under a strong delusion, by
even good women, surely the errors of unworldliness, unselfishness, and
that large charity which "thinketh no evil" are not so common in this
world as to be quite unpardonable. Better, tenfold, to be sinned
against than sinning.
"Better trust all, and be deceived,
And weep that trust and that deceiving,
Than doubt one heart which, if believed,
Had bless'd one's life with true believing."
Lord Cairnforth did not think this at the time, but he learned to do so
afterward. He learned, when time brought round its divine amende,
neither to reproach himself so bitterly, nor to blame others; and he
knew it was better to accept any sad earthly lot, any cruelty, deceit,
or wrong inflicted by others, than to have hardened his heart against
any living soul by acts of causeless suspicion or deliberate injustice.
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