"Apart from these considerations, we are happy. Otto, who
resigned from the army some time ago to turn his attention to
agriculture, is completing his practical studies at
Klausenburg. Thus we see each other daily,--sometimes in the
mornings, when grandpapa arranges our rides so that we meet
Otto, and always in the evenings. Then Otto comes to
Dönninghausen, and, in spite of the formality which is the rule
here, there are sure to be opportunities for delightful
_tête-à-têtes_ in the linden avenue, on the terrace, or, as
yesterday, when it rained, in a window-recess of the
drawing-room, while my grandfather and Aunt Thekla were playing
piquet and Magelone was seated at the piano. Then we can talk
freely of all that life has brought us to make us what we are,
and look forward to a future which seems almost too rich in
blessings! No, Ludwig, it is positively wicked to ask for more;
it is not possible to be happier than I am now!"
Would Otto have said the same? At times, perhaps, but in any
circumstances only at times. He was so absolutely dependent upon the
impression of the moment that his nature knew only moods, no settled
condition. When he clasped Johanna in his arms for the first time as his
betrothed he felt 'divinely happy' as never before, but immediately
afterward, when he received Magelone's cool congratulations, and later,
whenever he felt her unfathomable eyes resting upon him, he was
possessed by doubt and annoyance. He would have liked to be free, to
break his bonds, and yet a quiet hour with Johanna would again make him
her own. The love of her strong, full heart exalted him above himself.
He believed for a while in his own affection for her, and so long as no
fresh impulse from a contrary direction interfered, he let himself be
borne along in a kind of ecstasy by the same current to which Johanna
resigned herself. If they had been married without delay, and entirely
thrown upon each other's resources, Johanna's influence might perhaps
have come off conqueror. But Otto had to finish his year of study at
Klausenburg, Johanna had to acquire at Dönninghausen the knowledge to
qualify her for the mistress of a household, and Magelone was there--and
bored!
She had been startled at first by Otto's betrothal, as by a thunder-clap
out of a clear sky. The idea that she herself had perhaps brought about
this condition of affairs by her command to Otto was intolerable. She
soon found that Otto played his part in the farce with astonishing ease,
and then came the suspicion that the farce had been played with herself.
Upon this point she must have certainty, and if her suspicion proved
well founded he must be punished.
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