"Forgive me! forgive me!" he cried again and again, while clasping her
in his arms he kissed her hands, her lips, her eyes, and drew her down
beside him, overwhelming her with protestations of affection and
reproaching himself bitterly for his conduct. "Be magnanimous as ever!"
he entreated; "do not condemn me. I know what a thorough egotist I am;
when anything annoys me I think of no one but myself. I feel only my own
discomfort. I am ungenerous, unloving,--a very petrifaction of anger and
dissatisfaction. All the better part of me seems paralyzed. I think at
such moments I am a perfect wretch. But do not you forsake me, I conjure
you. If there is anything in this world that can save me from myself it
is your love."
Otto was apparently sincere in these self-accusations, but there is no
denying that he also found a certain piquant charm in thus setting forth
his heartlessness, and perhaps, too, he knew that he was never more
irresistible than when heaping himself with reproaches, and, with his
fine eyes bent entreatingly upon his companion, begging her to forgive
him. The oft-proved power again asserted its sway over Johanna.
Overcoming her own pain, she thought only of his distress, and did all
that she could to make him see himself in a more favourable light. Upon
calm reflection, she even found it quite natural that Otto should at
first apprehend only the superficial consequences of Helena's second
marriage, and she accused herself of over-sensitiveness. Otto also was
magnanimous,--he forgave the pain which he had caused,--and thus peace
was restored.
Great was Magelone's astonishment upon beholding the harmony existing
between the lovers when she saw them again. After what had occurred a
few hours before, she expected something quite different; but Johanna's
luck was something incredible. Otto, who had always been known to be
fickle, had suddenly grown so ridiculously dutiful that he had actually
fallen in love with a girl who had been forced upon him, scarcely
noticed any other woman, and, in spite of the proverbial pride of the
Dönninghausens, quietly acquiesced in this wretched connection. What was
the spell that Johanna had woven about him? It all seemed positively too
ridiculous to Magelone when she observed how Otto's eyes followed
Johanna; how he would seize her hand and kiss it as she passed him; how
he continually sought opportunities for a _tête-à-tête_ with her, even
venturing to whisper to her when the family were all present. If there
had only been a single soul in Dönninghausen with whom she could laugh
over it all! But Aunt Thekla contemplated the pair with pleased emotion,
the Freiherr with proud content, dubbing the lovers 'the handsomest
couple seen at Dönninghausen within the memory of man.' And the days
were so stormy and rainy,--the evenings were so long,--the family
assemblages so inevitable. And there sat Johanna with undeniably happy
eyes; and every evening Otto appeared,--oh, it was almost intolerable!
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