Helena wiped her eyes. "As if you would be allowed to go!" she said,
crossly. "You know very well that Carlo and Lisbeth cannot live without
you!"
"Not another word, Helena!" Johanna hastily interrupted her. "I must
prove to you this very day that I am in earnest about leaving you. After
what you have said, I should not stay, even had there been no newspaper
article." With these words, she gently put Lisbeth from her and arose.
Helena detained her. "How hasty you are!" she complained. "Every one
rages at me, but I must weigh every word I utter. Batti, who was going
to stay here until autumn, has suddenly--of course because of this Stein
affair--made up his mind to travel. He is going in two weeks to Holland,
to Belgium, and heaven knows where else! In the autumn we are to go to
St. Petersburg. But Lisbeth cannot travel. The doctor says she cannot
possibly pass a winter in Russia. I am at my wits' end. It would kill me
to let Batti go without me."
Again she burst into tears. Johanna had much ado to suppress the
expression of her joy. "Be composed," she said. "I will take charge of
Lisbeth."
"How can you do that if you leave us?" Helena sobbed. And, seizing
Johanna's hand, she entreated, "Be kind; make it up with Batti, and stay
with us----"
But to stay after all that had been said and done was simply impossible.
Every kindness shown Johanna by Batti would furnish Helena with cause
for jealousy. After reflecting for a few moments, Johanna replied, "I
must go; indeed, it is the right thing to do. But we need not part in
anger. We will tell Batti that this hotel is too noisy for me; that I
need fresh air. I will find a quiet lodging at a reasonable rate in the
suburbs. Whenever you drive out you can bring Lisbeth to me, and when
you go away you can leave her with me altogether."
"But what will you live on?" Helena asked. "I would gladly help you, but
I never have anything; my dress costs so much!"
"Don't let that trouble you," said Johanna. "I have a couple of hundred
thalers." She had saved this from her pocket-money that she might have
the wherewithal to bestow upon the poor of Dönninghausen and Tannhagen.
"Moreover, Dr. Wolf has enabled me to dispose of a novel which I wrote
awhile ago, and I shall go on working diligently."
"Wrote?" drawled Helena. "Dear Johanna, have you reflected? No one
thinks much of authoresses----Blue-stocking! it sounds odious!"
Johanna laughed: "That must be borne. My only choice lay between the
circus and the pen----"
"You are right; the pen suits you and your serious style much better!"
Helena exclaimed. "But it is odd to fancy you a blue-stocking. How did
you happen to think of it? I wish you had married your cousin. Is not a
reconciliation possible?"
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