He took a step forward with outstretched arms but she lifted a pleading
hand.
"Don't," she said. "I've got ter think . . . go away now."
And triumphantly confident of what would come out of her meditation, he
turned and picked up his hat and left her standing there. He might
have talked to her of passionate love, he told himself, to the end of
time and it would have meant nothing. Instead he had brought her face
to face with it--and now there was no need of talk.
Jack Halloway had meant it when he admitted to Brent in New York that
it would not do to give rein to his thoughts of Alexander. They were
all lawless thoughts of a love not to be trammeled by the obligations
of marriage.
If he hated the civilized world at times, there were other times when
he could not live without it, and into its conventionalized pattern,
Alexander could never fit. She was not civilized enough or educated
enough to take her place there at his side, nor was she pagan enough to
come to him without terms or conditions. So he had resolved to stay
away, and put her out of his mind and in that determination he failed.
Now he had flung away all heed. He had held her in his arms and
consequences could care for themselves!
But when he had left the porch and Alexander had begun to grope her way
out of the vortex of confusion, that small figment of wrath that she
had known she should feel and yet had so far failed to feel, began to
grow until it engulfed and merged into itself every other element of
her reflections.
She had been scornful when Brent questioned her ability or her
permanent wish to repulse suitors, and yet after only two had come, she
no longer knew her own mind. But she told herself with a solemn
indignation, she at least wanted to make her own terms. She had no
intent of being swept off her feet by the masterful whim of a man who
had never pleaded. Yet that was the thing that had just occurred.
Slowly the stunned eyes in the waxen white face became less wonder-wide
and began to smoulder with outraged realization. She rose with the
fixed determination that before the sun set, she would kill Halloway or
compel him to kill her. One of them must die. But her own ideas of
fairness challenged that edict. If she had the right to assume such a
ground, she should have taken it without any instant of faltering. She
should never have acknowledged an impulse of thrill while she was
close-held in his arms. She had let him think that she had not
resented it, and she was as much to blame as he.
So when Halloway came back the next morning with the glow of eagerness
in his face, he found a very quiet girl waiting to receive him, and
when he would have taken her in his arms she once more put out that
warning hand, but this time with a different expression of lip and eye.
"Stop," she said. "Me an' you hev got ter talk together."
"Thet suits me," he assured her. "Thar hain't nothin' else I'd ruther
do--save ter hold ye in my arms."
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