She meant to go to her father with it. It was he who had forbidden her to see Akers, for one thing. And she felt nearer to her father than to her mother, always. Since her return she had developed an almost passionate admiration for Howard, founded perhaps on her grandfather's attitude toward him. She was strongly partizan, and she watched her father, day after day, fighting his eternal battles with Anthony, sometimes winning, often losing, but standing for a principle like a rock while the seas of old Anthony's wrath washed over and often engulfed him. She was rather wistful those days, struggling with her own perplexities, and blindly reaching out for a hand to help her. But she could not bring herself to confession. She would wander into her father's dressing-room before she went to bed, and, sitting on the arm of his deep chair, would try indirectly to get him to solve the problems that were troubling her. But he was inarticulate and rather shy with her. He had difficulty, sometimes, after her long absence at school and camp, in realizing her as the little girl who had once begged for his neckties to make into doll frocks. Once she said: “Could you love a person you didn't entirely respect, father?” “Love is founded on respect, Lily.” She pondered that. She felt that he was wrong. “But it does happen, doesn't it?” she had persisted. He had been accustomed to her searchings for interesting abstractions for years. She used to talk about religion in the same way. So he smiled and said: “There is a sort of infatuation that is based on something quite different.” “On what?” But he had rather floundered there. He could not discuss physical attraction with her. “We're getting rather deep for eleven o'clock at night, aren't we?” After a short silence: “Do you mind speaking about Aunt Elinor, father?” “No, dear. Although it is rather a painful subject.” “But if she is happy, why is it painful?” “Well, because Doyle is the sort of man he is.” “You mean--because he is unfaithful to her? Or was?” He was very uncomfortable. “That is one reason for it, of course. There are others.” “But if he is faithful to her now, father? Don't you think, whatever a man has been, if he really cares for a woman it makes him over?” “Sometimes, not always.” The subject was painful to him. He did not want his daughter to know the sordid things of life. But he added, gallantly: “Of course a good woman can do almost anything she wants with a man, if he cares for her.” She lay awake almost all night, thinking that over. On the Sunday following Louis Akers' call Mademoiselle learned of it, by the devious route of the servants' hall, and she went to Lily at once, yearning and anxious, and in her best lace collar. She needed courage, and to be dressed in her best gave her moral strength. “It is not,” she said, “that they wish to curtail your liberty, Lily. But to have that man come here, when he knows he is not wanted, to force himself on you--”