When, in the evening, Sheila came down dressed and ready to go out,
Lavender had to admit to himself that he had married an exceedingly
beautiful girl, and that there was no country gawkiness about her
manner, and no placid insipidity about her proud and handsome face. For
one brief moment, he triumphed in his heart, and had some wild glimpse
of his old project of startling his small world with this vision from
the Northern seas. But when he got into the hired brougham, and thought
of the people he was about to meet, and of the manner in which they
would carry away such and such impressions of the girl, he lost faith in
that admiration. He would much rather have had Sheila unnoticeable and
unnoticed--one who would quietly take her place at the dinner-table, and
attract no more special attention than the flowers, for example, which
every one would glance at with some satisfaction, and then forget in the
interest of talking and dining. He was quite conscious of his own
weakness in thus fearing social criticism. He knew that Ingram would
have taken Sheila anywhere in her blue serge dress, and been quite
content and oblivious of observation. But then Ingram was independent of
these social circles in which a married man must move, and in which his
position is often defined for him by the disposition and manners of his
wife. Ingram did not know how women talked. It was for Sheila’s own
sake, he persuaded himself, that he was anxious about the impression she
should make, and that he had drilled her in all that she should do and
say.
“Above all things,” he said, “mind you take no notice of me. Another man
will take you in to dinner, of course, and I shall take in somebody
else, and we shall not be near each other. But it’s after dinner, I
mean: when the men go into the drawing-room don’t you come and speak to
me or take any notice of me whatever.”
“Mayn’t I look at you, Frank?”
“If you do, you’ll have half a dozen people all watching you, saying to
themselves or to each other, ‘Poor thing! she hasn’t got over her
infatuation yet. Isn’t it pretty to see how naturally her eyes turn
toward him?’”
“But I shouldn’t mind them saying that,” said Sheila, with a smile.
“Oh, you musn’t be pitied in that fashion. Let them keep their
compassion to themselves.”
“Do you know, dear,” said Sheila, very quietly, “that I think you
exaggerate the interest people will take in me? I don’t think I can be
of such importance to them. I don’t think they will be watching me as
you fancy.”
“Oh, you don’t know,” he said. “I know they fancy I have done something
romantic, heroic and all that kind of thing, and they are curious to see
you.”
“They cannot hurt me by looking at me,” said Sheila simply. “And they
will soon find out how little there is to discover.”
The house being in Holland Park, they had not far to go; and just as
they were driving up to the door a young man, slight, sandy-haired, and
stooping, got out of a hansom and crossed the pavement.
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