She went over all the story of her coming to London, of her first
experiences there, of the conviction that grew upon her that her husband
was somehow disappointed with her, and was anxious now that she should
conform to the ways and habits of the people with whom he associated.
She spoke of her efforts to obey his wishes, and how heartsick she was
with her failures, and of the dissatisfaction which he showed. She spoke
of the people to whom he devoted his life, of the way in which he passed
his time, and of the impossibility of her showing him, so long as he
thus remained apart from her, the love she had in her heart for him, and
the longing for sympathy which that love involved. And then she came to
the question of Mrs. Lorraine; and here it seemed to Ingram she was
trying at once to put her husband’s conduct in the most favorable light,
and to blame herself for her unreasonableness. Mrs. Lorraine was a
pleasant companion to him, she could talk cleverly and brightly, she was
pretty, and she knew a large number of his friends. Sheila was anxious
to show that it was the most natural thing in the world that her
husband, finding her so out of communion with his ordinary surroundings,
should make an especial friend of this graceful and fascinating woman.
And if at times it hurt her to be left alone--but here the girl broke
down somewhat, and Ingram pretended not to know that she was crying.
These were strange things to be told to a man, and they were difficult
to answer. But out of these revelations--which rather took the form of a
cry than of any distinct statement--he formed a notion of Sheila’s
position sufficiently exact; and the more he looked at it the more
alarmed and pained he grew, for he knew more of her than her husband
did. He knew the latent force of character that underlay all her
submissive gentleness. He knew the keen sense of pride her Highland
birth had given her; and he feared what might happen if this sensitive
and proud heart of hers were driven into rebellion by some possibly
unintentional wrong. And this high-spirited, fearless, honor-loving
girl--who was gentle and obedient, not through any timidity or limpness
of character, but because she considered it her duty to be gentle and
obedient--was to be cast aside and have her tenderest feelings outraged
and wounded for the sake of an unscrupulous, shallow-brained woman of
fashion, who was not fit to be Sheila’s waiting-maid. Ingram had never
seen Mrs. Lorraine, but he had formed his own opinion of her. The
opinion, based upon nothing, was wholly wrong, but it served to
increase, if that were possible, his sympathy with Sheila, and his
resolve to interfere on her behalf at whatever cost.
“Sheila,” he said, gravely putting his hand on her shoulder as if she
were still the little girl who used to run wild with him about the Borva
rocks, “you are a good woman.”
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