It would take too long to repeat the efforts Mr. Prime made to lead me
to reconsider my resolution. Meanwhile I was racking my brains to find a
way of letting matters rest without depriving him utterly of hope. As he
said, the knowledge that my heart was his only increased the bitterness
of his despair. Happy as I was, I felt bewildered and uncertain. I
shrank instinctively from revealing my identity at once. I wanted time
to think. I scarcely knew the character of my own emotions. At one
moment I blushed with a sense of the web of deceit that I had wound
about him, and at another with the joyful consciousness of our mutual
love. What would he say when the truth was made known to him? Ah! but he
loves me for myself alone, was the answering thought.
I had continued to shake my head as the sole response to his burning
petition; but at last I turned to him and said that if he were content
to wait, say a year, and let his passion have time to cool, I might be
less obdurate. But in the interim he was to make no effort to discover
my whereabouts, or to follow me. He must not even write to me (perhaps I
had a secret idea that too many letters strangle love), but pursue the
tenor of his way as though I had never existed. If at the end of that
time he still wished me to become his wife, it might be I should no
longer refuse. It was better for us both, I said, that we should part
for the present. He must consider himself free as air, and I should
think him sensible if on reflection he strove to banish me from his
thoughts.
"A year is a long time," he answered.
"Long enough, almost, to make a fortune in, as well as to become wise
and prudent."
By making him wait, I should let the banking-scheme develop itself a
little further.
When by dint of my refusal to yield further he was forced to consent to
these terms, we gave ourselves up to enjoyment of the few hours which we
could still pass together. I talked and laughed, over-bubbling with
happiness; but he would sigh ever and anon, as though he felt that I
were about to slip from his sight to return no more. Once in the gayety
of my mood I called Ike to me, and stooped to pat his pudgy sides. "Ike
the imperious, beautifully ugly Ike!" I cried with glee, and with a
daring that but for its very boldness might have disclosed all.
But my lover was in no mood to make deductions. "You seem so joyous,
Alice, one would suppose that you were glad to leave me."
"I am joyous,--yes, very joyous,--for I have been brave enough to save
the man I love from a _mesalliance_."
V.
The effect on a woman of the revelation that she loves him who has
proffered her his heart, is like the awakening of buds in spring, which
beneath the soft mysterious breath of an invisible power burst their
bonds with graceful reluctance, and shyly gladden Nature.
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