England -- Social life and customs -- Fiction; Love stories; Marriage -- Fiction
Jim Carthew lay with his head upon a friendly lump of coal, pondering
with his accustomed detachment upon the sundry and manifold changes of
this world. He thought of Death. Plainly he and his companions were
about to solve the mystery of what lay hidden round that corner which
our omniscience is pleased to consider the end of all things. What
would they find there? Another life--a vista more glorious and sublime
than man in his present state could conceive? Or just another long
lane--just another highway of labour and love, of service and reward?
Or--a _cul-de-sac_--an abyss--a jumping-off place? He wondered. Not
the last alternative, he thought: more likely one of the other two.
Anyhow, he would know soon, and it would be interesting. His one
regret was that he would not be able to come back, even for five
minutes, to tell his friends about it.
Friends!...
This brought a new train of reflection. He thought of Jack Carr and
Jack Carr's wife. Would the latter keep her promise, and come back to
her husband? He wondered. She should be in Belton this week, all being
well--that is, if this was the week he thought it was. But time seemed
rather a jumbled affair at present. Besides, he was so infernally
hungry that he could not reason things out. Never mind!...
He thought of Nina Tallentyre. _That_ difficulty had solved itself,
anyhow. No need for further hopings or strivings: that was a relief!
When their rupture occurred he had prayed to be excused from living
further. He had even petitioned that the earth might open and swallow
him up for ever. Well, the earth had done so, so he ought to be
satisfied. He was gone down into silence, and Nina was rid of
him--well rid of him! He was well rid of her, too. She had led him a
dog's life the last few months. A _dog's_ life. He repeated the fact
to himself pertinaciously, but without any great feeling either of
conviction or resentment.
He felt strangely contented and cheerful. His mind dwelt with
persistence on the bright side of things. He thought of the day when
she and he had first met, and Nina, in her superb, imperious manner,
had desired him to take her out of "this rabble," and come and amuse
her in a corner. He remembered subsequent meetings; various gracious
acts of condescension on Nina's part; and finally one special evening
on board a yacht in regatta-time, when they had sat together in a
corner of the upper deck in the lee of the chart-house, with a
perfectly preposterous moon egging them on, and the faint strains of
_Caressante_ pulsing across the silent water from the Commodore's
yacht hard by; and Nina had nearly--almost--all-but--and then
actually--capitulated.
She had gone back on her word three weeks later, it was true; but he
drew consolation even now from the memory of something which had
slipped through her long lashes and rolled down her cheek even as she
dismissed him, a memory which had carried through many a black hour.
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