A Secret of the Sea: A Novel. Vol. 1 (of 3)Speight, T. W. (Thomas Wilkinson)
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A Secret of the Sea: A Novel. Vol. 1 (of 3)
Speight, T. W. (Thomas Wilkinson)
English fiction -- 19th century
Five days after her cousin's return, Olive Deane found herself duly
installed in her new home, and two days after that Mr. John Pomeroy
made his appearance at Stammars.
Mr. Kelvin, despite his irritation and chagrin at what had taken place
during his absence, did not fail to carry out the promise he had made
to his mother. The situation was still open, and Sir Thomas at once
promised it to Pomeroy. Then Kelvin wrote to the latter, telling him
when he would be expected at Stammars, but not in any way alluding to
the loan of fifty pounds. As a matter of course, on passing through
Pembridge, Gerald called to see Kelvin, but the lawyer was not at
home--purposely. He had done his duty by his mother, but he had no
wish to see the man who had caused him so much annoyance; he only
hoped that Pomeroy would do nothing to disgrace his recommendation.
For the present he washed his hands of him.
Mr. Kelvin had not been without his own thoughts all this time as to
the course he had taken at Olive's suggestion in keeping from Miss
Lloyd the contents of the sealed packet sent him by Miss Bellamy. He
was not usually a man whose mind vacillated with regard to any of his
intentions or purposes. "There's no shilly-shallying about Matthew,"
his mother would often say. "When he sees his point he goes straight
at it: fire and water would hardly keep him back."
But in this matter of the sealed packet he did shilly-shally
painfully, blowing hot and cold by turns, making up his mind one day
that he would tell everything, and being as stedfastly determined the
next that he would do nothing of the kind. He was not unaware of the
meanness of what he was doing; it was altogether foreign to his
notions of right and wrong, to act with anything but the strictest
honour towards his clients, rich or poor. Still, about this particular
case there was something so exceptional as to remove it out of the
ordinary category of purely professional business--that is what he
said to himself: but the real reason was that his own feelings were
more deeply interested than they had ever been before. Under such
circumstances it is by no means difficult to argue oneself into the
belief that although the action on which we are engaged may not be
positively meritorious, it is, at least, one from which no one will
suffer. "I am only doing Miss Lloyd a negative wrong," Kelvin would
sometimes say to himself. "If anything, she ought to thank me for
keeping the secret from her as long as possible." Having put off the
revelation for so long a time, he shrank more than ever from telling
her now. One morning on getting up he would swear to himself that he
had never loved Eleanor Lloyd as he loved her now: next morning he
would vow that he had never hated any human being as he hated her. He
had been rendered very wretched by Miss Lloyd's rejection of his suit;
but with all his unhappiness he had never till now lost his own sense
of self-respect: not that he would have admitted for a single moment
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