Adventure and adventurers -- Fiction; Short stories
would have nothing to do with him now—then surely nobody else would.
That was clear. The police, keeping their eye on him, would hasten to warn
every employer inclined to give him a chance. He felt suddenly very
helpless, alarmed and idle; and he followed the middle-aged man to the
estaminet round the corner where he met some other good companions. They
assured him that he would not be allowed to starve, work or no work. They
had drinks all round to the discomfiture of all employers of labour and to
the destruction of society.
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He sat biting his lower lip.
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“That is, monsieur, how I became a compagnon,” he said. The hand he passed
over his forehead was trembling. “All the same, there’s something wrong in
a world where a man can get lost for a glass more or less.”
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He never looked up, though I could see he was getting excited under his
dejection. He slapped the bench with his open palm.
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“No!” he cried. “It was an impossible existence! Watched by the police,
watched by the comrades, I did not belong to myself any more! Why, I could
not even go to draw a few francs from my savings-bank without a comrade
hanging about the door to see that I didn’t bolt! And most of them were
neither more nor less than housebreakers. The intelligent, I mean. They
robbed the rich; they were only getting back their own, they said. When I
had had some drink I believed them. There were also the fools and the mad.
Des exaltes—quoi! When I was drunk I loved them. When I got more
drink I was angry with the world. That was the best time. I found refuge
from misery in rage. But one can’t be always drunk—n’est-ce pas,
monsieur? And when I was sober I was afraid to break away. They would have
stuck me like a pig.”
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He folded his arms again and raised his sharp chin with a bitter smile.
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“By and by they told me it was time to go to work. The work was to rob a
bank. Afterwards a bomb would be thrown to wreck the place. My beginner’s
part would be to keep watch in a street at the back and to take care of a
black bag with the bomb inside till it was wanted. After the meeting at
which the affair was arranged a trusty comrade did not leave me an inch. I
had not dared to protest; I was afraid of being done away with quietly in
that room; only, as we were walking together I wondered whether it would
not be better for me to throw myself suddenly into the Seine. But while I
was turning it over in my mind we had crossed the bridge, and afterwards I
had not the opportunity.”
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In the light of the candle end, with his sharp features, fluffy little
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