It might have been very confidently predicted that he would not have
done so. He began, in an unreasoning animal-like sort of way, to
recognize the fact that every hour that he spent away from this woman
was bare, barren, and of no value to him at all. He was conscious that
he could be said to live only in her presence. He was beginning to give
himself up as a lost man, and to acquiesce, half-stunned and stupid, in
a fatality which he could not struggle against.
And now he was longing--burning not only to have his eyes on her again,
but to speak to her. He would have plenty, of opportunities of doing so
at the theatre in the green-room, or in her dressing-room, and every
minute seemed to him an age till he could find such an opportunity.
If he had been asked at that minute--if he had himself asked of his own
mind--what he meant to do--to what future he was looking, whether he
meant to marry La Lalli or to give her up, he would probably have
repudiated either alternative with equal violence. His mind was in a
state of chaos; and what was to come in any future, except the most
immediate one, he had become incapable of considering. Now he was going
to see, to hear, to breathe the same atmosphere with her again, and to
go through the wretched task of striving to behave as usual, and look as
usual in the eyes of all Ravenna.
The performance was to commence at half-past eight o'clock, and the
Marchese, reaching the theatre nearly half-an-boar before that time,
found Bianca sufficiently nearly dressed for him to be admitted to her
dressing-room. She was putting the finishing touches to the platting of
her magnificent hair, after the fashion of a Swiss village-girl, for the
completion of her toilette as Amina. He thought that, in this new
costume, she looked more irresistibly attractive than he had yet seen
her.
"Bianca," he said, as soon as her dresser had left her, and shut the
door, "you have made me so miserable to-day. I must tell you openly at
once what is in my heart. I saw, to-day, at the Corso--by no means
intending to look at all at your carriage after it had passed mine--I
saw my poor flowers thrown away by you, while you were throwing a
bouquet to my nephew and receiving from him something thrown in return.
Bianca, is that the conduct of a woman who has the very same morning
accepted the hand of another man? Bianca, I warn you to beware; you do
not know what such a love as mine, if it should discover itself to be
betrayed, might be capable of."
"Marchese, do not look at me in that way; you frighten me, and what have
I done? It is all a mistake, entirely a mistake!" said the poor Diva,
really frightened at the manner of the Marchese.
"Did I not see you throw the flowers I had given you from your carriage;
evidently for the purpose of gratifying another person?"
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