That apprehension was, in its way, of our house of learning too, and
yet I recall how, on the scant and simple terms I have glanced at, I
quite revelled in it; whereas other impressions of my brief ordeal
shrink, for anything in the nature of interest, but to three or four
recovered marks of the social composition of the school. There were the
sons of all the small shop-keepers and not less, by my remembrance, of
certain of the mechanics and artisans; but there was also the English
contingent, these predominantly _internes_ and uniformed, blue-jacketed
and brass-buttoned, even to an effect of odd redundancy, who by my
conceit gave our association a lift. Vivid still to me is the summer
morning on which, in the wide court--as wide, that is, as I liked to
suppose it, and where we hung about helplessly enough for recreation--a
brownish black-eyed youth, of about my own degree of youthfulness,
mentioned to me with an air that comes back as that of the liveliest
informational resource the outbreak, just heard of, of an awful Mutiny
in India, where his military parents, who had not so long before sent
him over thence, with such weakness of imagination, as I measured it, to
the poor spot on which we stood, were in mortal danger of their lives;
so that news of their having been killed would perhaps be already on the
way. They might well have been military, these impressively exposed
characters, since my friend's name was Napier, or Nappie as he was
called at the school, and since, I may add also, there attached to him,
in my eyes, the glamour of an altogether new emphasis of type. The
English boys within our ken since our coming abroad had been of the
fewest--the Fezandie youths, whether English or American, besides being
but scantly boys, had been so lost, on that scene, in our heap of
disparities; and it pressed upon me after a fashion of its own that
those we had known in New York, and all aware of their varieties and
"personalities" as one had supposed one's self, had in no case
challenged the restless "placing" impulse with any such force as the
finished little Nappie. They had not been, as he was by the very
perversity of his finish, resultants of forces at all--or comparatively
speaking; it was as if their producing elements had been simple and few,
whereas behind this more mixed and, as we have learnt to say, evolved
companion (his very simplicities, his gaps of possibility, being still
evolved), there massed itself I couldn't have said what protective
social order, what tangled creative complexity. Why I should have
thought him almost Indian of stamp and hue because his English parents
were of the so general Indian peril is more than I can say; yet I have
his exotic and above all his bold, his imaginably even "bad," young
face, finely unacquainted with law, before me at this hour quite
undimmed--announcing, as I conceived it, and quite as a shock, any
awful adventure one would, as well as something that I must even at the
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