Whether the page contained notes from some book that he wished to
controvert, or his own views jotted down for future elaboration, she
could not determine; but as she stooped to pick up and preserve it, a
growl startled her, and around the corner of the desk she saw the red
eyes of Tzar. She spoke to him, but he rose, showed his fangs, and
stalked out of the room, the bristles stiff on his dun-colored back. How
long she sat, plunged in painful, perplexed revery, she never knew; but
finally she went to the open door of the bedroom, and leaned against the
facing, unwilling to enter. Over the low, carved chimney-piece hung the
portrait of Mrs. Herriott, a very beautiful young woman in black velvet
and pearls, and the perfect features, the poise of head, the silky black
hair, and especially the fine moulding of brow she gave to her son,
though unlike his her soft, tender eyes matched her hair in color.
Below the portrait a silver frame held a photograph of Eglah in evening
dress, taken in Washington; beside it another, wearing her college cap
and gown. On the dressing table a glittering circle arrested her
attention. Swiftly she entered, crossed the room, and leaned over it. An
exquisitely painted miniature of herself, set with diamonds, and resting
on a carved ivory easel, looked up at her. Two discarded photographs of
Mr. Herriott lay with some torn letters under a neighboring chair. She
snatched one and hurried away, fearing to trust herself; but passing the
smoking jacket she caught it up, folded it under her arm, and escaped to
her room.
Exchanging her trailing morning gown of cream silk for the travelling
suit, she packed her trunk, hiding jacket and photograph beneath the
tray, locked it, and sat down to wait. In the wreck of her overturned
altar and shattered filial ideals, beyond and above the desolation of
her cruel disenchantment, rose one image inflexible, incorruptible,
absolutely invulnerable to temptation, that involved sacrifice of duty.
As the mist cleared, strange new valuations loomed, and she thought of
lines that limned his portrait:
"Loyalty is still the same,
Whether it win or lose the game."
For years he had been entirely hers. Now she lost him hopelessly. His
contempt could spare no room for pity; her presence infuriated him.
He had lifted her to a sacred niche where love and reverence jealously
guarded her, and she had hurled herself down into the mire of the market
place.
"For sale! Any man could have bought you, body and soul."
The words branded her. They seemed burned in by the scorn flaming in his
eyes, and she thought of the red letter on Hester Prynne's breast. The
world should never know, but she would carry that scar to her grave.
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