"To Spain; to a quiet little place hidden away in the Pyrenees, where
she hopes she will meet no one who ever heard of her, and where, having
nothing to remind her of three horrible years, she can try to forget her
suffering. To avoid all acquaintances, she will not sail from New York,
but goes directly to Charleston, and thence to Havana, where she can
take a steamer to Spain. I think, sir, no one can understand her
terrible humiliation in being rejected. While you were away, surrounded
by dangers, and she was on the rack of suspense, tortured almost beyond
endurance, only deep and tender love filled her heart. Since she has
seen you safe and well--yet no word of remembrance has been sent to
her--wounded pride possesses her, and she seems indeed petrified. Even
now she maintains with strange composure: 'He is within his rights; he
is not to blame. It was all my fault. I made the mistake of presuming
too far on his love, which was less than I counted on, and I deserve my
punishment; but sometimes I think God, who saw my heart and knew I did
not intend any wrong, might have spared me some of the bitter dregs I
have had to drink.' With all her pride, she is acutely sensitive to
adverse gossip. From childhood she has borne so much on account of her
father's unpopularity in the State, and people do not understand her. In
Washington her loyalty to the South and to the Maurices subjected her to
sneers and much unpleasantness. Her sudden marriage and subsequent
events, especially her coming home before you sailed, have caused
annoying comment, and now she is hurrying through Y----, anxious to get
away before the fact of your return is known there. She does not suspect
the opposition manifested by some of the vestrymen to that memorial
window. Only the pleadings of the rector and the influence of Mr.
Whitfield, who is not an Episcopalian and who had no cause to like Judge
Kent, availed to smother the objections to its erection. This
mortification we have managed to save her. Now, sir, you will please
pardon me if I speak very frankly. What passed between you and Eglah
after your marriage I do not know, nor did Judge Kent. Her lips have
been sealed, but I have often thought the estrangement arose from your
discovery of the fact that she did not love you as she should have done
before she married you, and therefore I have come here to try to save
you both from making shipwreck of your lives. If that was the cause of
the trouble, it exists no longer. She loves you now as devotedly as even
you could wish."
He shook his head and swept his hand across his face.
"Madam, she pities me, she deplores my disappointment; perhaps she
censures herself unduly, but love! She knows no more of love than a baby
in its cradle. She never will. She is absolutely incapable of loving any
man. Too many have tried zealously to touch her heart, and failed as
signally as I certainly did."
Mrs. Mitchell's black eyes sparkled through her tears.
Public-domain text, read in full here on John Shaqi.
Reviews
Reviews
No reviews yet
Be the first to share your thoughts on this work.
Elsewhere in the archive
Join the Discussion
Join the discussion
Sign in to leave a comment or review.
Sign InorCreate an account