"Eglah!" His voice was a passionate appeal.
She interlaced and clasped her own fingers, her hands hanging in front
of her.
"Mr. Herriott, I am very glad you have reached home safely. I
congratulate you upon escaping the dangers of your Arctic journey."
"You are not surprised to see me in the United States?"
"Not at all. I happened to call at Calvary House recently, and
accidentally I saw and heard you talking in the cloister."
"You were so near, so near--yet gave me no intimation of your presence?"
"I have studied and learned thoroughly the lesson you selected and set
for me; you wished to avoid me. My schooling was effectual, and I was
glad to gratify you."
"When I landed I went first to Calvary House with a suffering human
wreck whom I promised----"
"Why trouble yourself to explain what concerns only you and your sick
friend? Your reasons I have neither the right to ask, nor any desire to
hear."
"At least you will permit me to thank you for all your gracious kindness
to Amos Lea. He tells me you saved his life, and thereby I am far more
your debtor than is the poor old man."
"Never my debtor. Amos and I understand each other, and I was glad to
help take care of him. You owe me absolutely nothing but the fulfilment
of your own unsolicited pledges."
"Why do you suppose I came here?"
"Why--indeed; when you pressed on my acceptance the promise that my
'future should be spared your shadow'? I presume you came from a
chivalric sense of imaginary duty, or possibly a courteous
semi-recognition of what you may have conjectured I might regard as my
legal claims. I have absolutely none of any kind, along any lines.
Having renounced and banished me, perhaps you wished to assure yourself
that the condemned is at least not needy in exile? By what right could
you expect me--disowned, rejected, scorned--to desire ever to see again
a man whom once I trusted, almost as I did my God? To whom I fled as
sole refuge from the infamy that threatened one supreme in my life, and
when like a frantic child I clung to him, believing he loved me, he
shook me off, as if a worm crawled on his hand. After the whirlwind
passed, after the black veil of death mercifully interposed and hid us
from ruin, I came to my senses--I realized the magnitude of my error. My
ideal world had crumbled, you alone survived the wreck; I honored you
for your loyalty to the innocent man in his grave, and God knows I have
rejoiced that you denied my prayer, that you refused to perjure
yourself, but--your cruel words sank deep. While I could not blame you,
my punishment has been as severe as I deserved, as keenly mortifying as
you intended and desired. In my helplessness and sorrow you have
humiliated me by every means at your command, made me a target for
derision and for slander. Three long, sad years, without a line. Yet you
found a way to write to your gardener."
"Yes, I knew Amos loved me. You did not."
"As you felt assured of that fact, I fail to understand why you have
come."
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