"My darling, I love you infinitely more. You were never so sacred, so
dear as to-day. Of what can you feel afraid now? In my dream you were
more generous. I can take, but I prefer to receive the blessed seal I
hope you will give me, as holy assurance that you are entirely my own."
Shyly she turned her flushed face towards his, one hand, quivering like
a frightened bird, softly drew his brown cheek closer, and the proud,
beautiful, vestal lips nestled and clung to her husband's.
Sitting beside her on the bench, he said, as his brilliant, happy eyes
studied her face:
"Will you please tell me when you began really to care for me?"
"What can that matter now? Do not make me look back into shadows I wish
to forget. All our light shines ahead."
"I should like to fix the date of my coronation, that I may compute
accurately my despotic reign from the hour I entered into possession of
my kingdom. Tell me, sweetheart; why should you shrink?"
"Do you recall that last morning at home, when you came from the beach
followed by the dogs? Seeing me at the window, you took off your cap and
waved it. As I looked down at you then, something strange seemed
suddenly to stir and wake up and tremble in my heart. I did not
understand; it was a new feeling, and I was so wounded and tortured over
many things I could not analyze it; supposed it a part of my punishment.
I had seen you look better. Your boating suit and full evening dress
were certainly more becoming, but in some unaccountable, extraordinary
way that grey cap wave, and the peculiar expression I had never before
seen in your eyes, brought you closer to me than you had ever been. When
I sat alone in your smoking-room and saw the strapped trunks and your
fur overcoat--like a coffin and a pall--a terribly bitter wave rolled
over me at the thought of giving you up. I began to be jealous of Amos,
and I envied the dear old dogs the tender caress of your stroking hand.
At the last you coldly said good-bye; but when you caught, strained me
against you, I found out what it all meant. I knew then that woman's
heritage of sorrow was mine, and that my heart followed you into Polar
night. The ache that began that day at Greyledge grew and tortured me
until--I felt your arms around me once more."
He lifted her left hand and kissed it, pressing the ring against his
face.
"Why did not you tell me? I should have been spared so much brutal
bitterness of feeling."
"It was impossible after all the harsh, cruel things you had deemed it
your duty to say to me, and you would have scouted such a sudden change
of feeling as inconceivable, as absurd. The strangeness of the
revelation overwhelmed, frightened me; I was more astonished than you
would have been. Tell you? Mr. Noel, I would sooner have gone to the
stake."
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