She paused for a moment, her breath coming quickly. Then she continued
hurriedly, twining her fingers in a nervous clasp: “Things have happened
that make it impossible for him to care for me--I shall never see
him again. I am going away this afternoon--see,”--she pointed to a
dressing-bag packed, but still open, lying on the table. “And I shall
pass out of his life altogether.”
“But I don't understand!” cried Felicia, in grieved dismay. “What could
make him cease to love you?”
“I have not been what the world calls a good woman, Felicia. God knows
I have paid the penalty already--but the bitterest penalty of all is yet
to be paid--the surrender of the longed-for Paradise, that only a woman
who has lived as I have done can long for. Oh, my child, my dear, tender
little girl, the way of the world is made hard for women sometimes.”
“Why should the women always suffer?” asked Felicia.
“Why? God knows. It is life.”
“If I were a man,” said Felicia, with a glow in her eyes, “I would think
it dastardly to let a woman suffer, if I loved her.”
“There are some things that kill love,” replied Katherine bitterly.
“Has Raine told you so?”
“Ah, no. He is too generous.”
“Then how do you know?”
“My dear, when you leave a cut flower in the sun you know it will be
withered up. There is no need for you to watch it to make sure.”
“But--if he still loves you? He did last night--he did this morning.”
Katherine gently laid her hand on the girl's lips.
“Hush! I told you. What I have done can't be undone.”
“But you love him, Katherine,” Felicia burst out impetuously.
“Don't you see I am signing my death-warrant?” cried Katherine.
Her voice vibrated and she looked at Felicia with shining eyes--“I shall
love him till I die, as the best and wisest man of men that has ever
walked the earth.”
She rose, crossed the room, came back and laid her hands upon Felicia's
shoulders, and looked into her young, wondering eyes.
“Dear,” she said, “I shall always remember what you have done for
me to-day. When you came in, I thought my heart was broken--but your
tenderness stole over me like a charm--and now you see I can talk
quite sensibly, and smile, just like my own self again. You must bid
me good-bye, dear. I must go soon. But what I want to tell you is this.
Think kindly of me--ah, don't you cry, child--there has been enough of
tears to-day--think of me, dear, as a sister-woman, who stepped aside
once out of the beaten track and for whom fate has been too much. And,
Felicia dear, when I am gone--it will take very, very little to make
Raine love you--”
“Ah, no!” cried Felicia passionately.
But Katherine smiled her sad, self-controlled smile.
“All, yes! He cannot help loving you--and so God give you happiness.”
“I can't bear you to go like this. I can't bear it!” cried Felicia.
“We all have to work out our destiny,” said Katherine. “Now good-bye,
dear--God bless you.”
A few moments later, Katherine was alone again, finishing her
preparations for departure.
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