Life on other planets -- Fiction; Psychological fiction; Quests (Expeditions) -- Fiction; Science fiction
Haunte’s jeering malevolence had completely vanished. He looked a sick
man—yet somehow his face had become nobler.
“I would be very sorry for you, Haunte, if it did not entail my being
also very sorry for myself. We are now all three together on the same
errand—which doesn’t appear to have struck you yet.”
“But why this errand at all?” asked Corpang quietly. “Can’t you men
exercise self-control till you have arrived out of danger?”
Haunte fixed him with wild eyes. “No. The phantoms come trooping in on
me already.”
He sat down moodily, but the next minute was up again.
“And I cannot wait.... the game is started.”
Soon afterward, by silent consent, they began to walk the ledge, Haunte
in front. It was narrow, ascending, and slippery, so that extreme
caution was demanded. The way was lighted by the self-luminous snow and
rocks.
When they had covered about half a mile, Maskull, who went second of the
party, staggered, caught the cliff, and finally sat down.
“The drink works. My old sensations are returning, but worse.”
Haunte turned back. “Then you are a doomed man.”
Maskull, though fully conscious of his companions and situation,
imagined that he was being oppressed by a black, shapeless, supernatural
being, who was trying to clasp him. He was filled with horror, trembled
violently, yet could not move a limb. Sweat tumbled off his face in
great drops. The waking nightmare lasted a long time, but during that
space it kept coming and going. At one moment the vision seemed on the
point of departing; the next it almost took shape—which he knew would be
his death. Suddenly it vanished altogether—he was free. A fresh spring
breeze fanned his face; he heard the slow, solitary singing of a sweet
bird; and it seemed to him as if a poem had shot together in his soul.
Such flashing, heartbreaking joy he had never experienced before in all
his life! Almost immediately that too vanished.
Sitting up, he passed his hand across his eyes and swayed quietly, like
one who has been visited by an angel.
“Your colour changed to white,” said Corpang. “What happened?”
“I passed through torture to love,” replied Maskull simply.
He stood up. Haunte gazed at him sombrely. “Will you not describe that
passage?”
Maskull answered slowly and thoughtfully. “When I was in Matterplay, I
saw heavy clouds discharge themselves and change to coloured, living
animals. In the same way, my black, chaotic pangs just now seemed to
consolidate themselves and spring together as a new sort of joy. The joy
would not have been possible without the preliminary nightmare. It is
not accidental; Nature intends it so. The truth has just flashed through
my brain.... You men of Lichstorm don’t go far enough. You stop at the
pangs, without realising that they are birth pangs.”
“If this is true, you are a great pioneer,” muttered Haunte.
“How does this sensation differ from common love?” interrogated Corpang.
“This was all that love is, multiplied by wildness.”
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