A Widow's Tale, and Other StoriesOliphant, Mrs. (Margaret)
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A Widow's Tale, and Other Stories
Oliphant, Mrs. (Margaret)
Fiction; Short stories
She was not altogether French, notwithstanding her name: indeed her
nationality was the most dubious thing in the world, unless any assault
was made upon either of the countries to which she owed her parentage.
She had a way of thus becoming intensely English at a moment's notice,
and intensely French the next--the latter, perhaps, with still greater
warmth than the former, as became the constitutional difference between
French and English. She was a woman in the full flower and prime of
life--that is, approaching thirty-five: a period, however, at which few
people will acknowledge a woman's prime to be. According to the vulgar
notion, indeed, beauty has begun to fade at this period, when it ought
to be in fullest, gorgeous flower. There are some liberal minds which
will confess that a woman who is married is in all her magnificence at
this age; but for those who are unmarried it is always, in England at
least, considered a time of decadence. Thirty-five means fading--the
state of the _délaissée_--the condition of the old maid. Mademoiselle
had come to this age. She had been a governess for a great part of her
life, since she was twenty: fifteen long years, but it seemed a hundred
as she looked back upon it. She had developed in that time from a raw
girl--weeping passionate tears over a great many things which she
scarcely noticed now, feeling herself abandoned, miserable, left in the
background, left out of everything, humiliated in her unaccustomed
position, injured by life and all that happened to her--into a rational,
calm woman, who had made up her mind to the path she was compelled by
necessity to tread, and had acquired a dignity of her own which no
little slights or scorn could touch. The number of people who are
absolutely unkind to their governesses and dependents is small, and yet
it can scarcely be, except in very exceptional cases, a comfortable
position. To be as good as, or perhaps better than, your employers and
superiors--as good and yet so very much worse; to live in a house, and
yet not to belong to it; to sit alone and hear the echoes of life going
on all round--sounds of voices, of doors opening and shutting, of people
coming and going, which you cannot help hearing, and yet have nothing to
do with; to be contented and independent alone, not showing too much
sympathy nor too much zeal, interfering with nothing, making no
remark,--can anything be more difficult? A woman can scarcely do this
without deteriorating in some way; and there is a state of mind which is
born of the condition--its most common development--a state in which the
faculties are on the alert to interpret all the echoes, to catch at
every whisper, to make out everything that is concealed or under the
surface. The back-stairs at Court do not afford an edifying sphere of
study, but still there are notable persons coming and going, and a faint
reflection of history in their chance words and looks. But the
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