A Widow's Tale, and Other StoriesOliphant, Mrs. (Margaret)
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A Widow's Tale, and Other Stories
Oliphant, Mrs. (Margaret)
Fiction; Short stories
what would have appeared a fortune to Mademoiselle--a thousand pounds,
or something of that sort. As well say a million at once. She had
learned, among her many experiences, that to rise to the height of
independence like that it was necessary to begin on a large scale--to
have a good house, and gardens, and servants, and pretensions. The
little bit of a house in a little street, with half-a-dozen little daily
pupils drawn from the neighbourhood, meant beggary and misery and
endless struggles. When the time should come that the mother wanted her
children's care and tendance, and could not be left alone, then it might
come to that; but a mother who was only sixty, and full of activity,
required no such sacrifice. Therefore Mademoiselle had arrived at the
conviction that there was no change to be expected in the tenor of
existence--no change for the better--nothing but decadence and downfall.
When the present pupils grew up she would go on to another family. She
would have little difficulty in finding another situation. It gets very
speedily known in any profession what people are worth, and she would
find another place easily enough; but she would be older, and when
another change came older still. By the time she was fifty she would
have finished her present pupils, and probably another set, and then she
would be old, and the young mothers of growing girls would not care to
have her. They would fear that she would not be strong enough, that she
would be unable to take the walks that were necessary, and to be up
sufficiently early in the morning. They would be alarmed lest she should
fall ill on their hands. She looked forward, seeing this prospect very
clearly before her, not deceiving herself, thinking it all over with a
sort of cheerful despair. She kept cheerful--for what good would it do
her to be gloomy?--and it was altogether foreign to her temper, in which
there was a natural horror of dulness and monotony, and an elasticity
which astonished even herself; but yet, no doubt, the outlook was one of
despair: to labour on, always with a kind of personal luxury, living and
lodging more or less as people who are very well off lodge and live, yet
with so little money--money which, when she sent a share to her mother,
and looked to her modest, serious wardrobe, her dark gowns, which were
so thrifty, and lasted for ever, left so little over--sometimes a few
pounds, sometimes only shillings! Great is the power of saving, as we
have all heard, and many littles make a mickle, the proverb says; but
you may think how slow a process saving is when all that it permits to
be laid by is, perhaps, ten pounds a-year. In ten years a hundred
pounds! which was a great comfort, and made her feel that she might have
a long illness and die of it, and be laid in the bosom of the
mother-earth without being indebted to anybody--a consolation
unspeakable; but yet, when you come to think of it, one which means
despair, though always a cheerful despair.
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