A Widow's Tale, and Other StoriesOliphant, Mrs. (Margaret)
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A Widow's Tale, and Other Stories
Oliphant, Mrs. (Margaret)
Fiction; Short stories
Janey walked into the hotel with her little belongings, not knowing
whether she was indeed walking upon her feet or floating upon wings. She
was quite composed. But if any one could only have seen the commotion
within that youthful bosom! She locked the door of the little delightful
solitary room in which she was placed. It was not delightful at all; But
to Janey it was a haven of peace, as sweet, as secluded from everything
alarming and terrible, as any bower. Not till evening could he by any
possibility arrive--the man who had caused such a revolution in her
life. She had some ten hours of divine quiet before her, of blessed
solitude, of thought. She did not refuse to take the little meal that
was brought to her, the breakfast of which she stood in need; and she
was glad to be able to bathe her face, to take off her dusty dress, and
put on the soft and fresh one, which, happily, had folded into very
small space, and therefore could be put into her bag. Her head still
buzzed with the strangeness of the position, yet began to settle a
little. When she had made all these little arrangements she sat down to
consider. Perhaps you will think there was very little to consider,
nothing but how to wait till the next train brought him, which, after
all, was not a very great thing to do. Appalling, perhaps, to a little
inexperienced bride; but not to Janey, who had travelled alone so often,
and knew the language, and all that.
But whoever had been able to look into Janey's mind would have seen that
something more was there,--a very, very different thing from the
question of how best to await his coming back. Oh, if he had loved her,
Janey would have put up with many things! She would have schooled
herself out of all her private repugnances; she would have been so
grateful to him, so touched by the affection which nobody had ever
bestowed upon her before! But he did not love her. He cared nothing
about herself, Janey; did not even know her, or want to know her, or
take into consideration her ways or her wishes. He was in love with her
pretty face, her fresh little beauty, her power of pleasing him. If ever
that power ceased, which it was sure to do, sooner or later, she would
be to him less than nothing, the dreary little wife whom everybody has
seen attached to a careless man: Janey felt that this was what was in
store for her. She felt the horror of him, and his kind of loving, which
had been such a miserable revelation to her. She felt the relief, the
happiness, ah, the bliss, of having lost him for a moment, of being
alone.
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