A Widow's Tale, and Other StoriesOliphant, Mrs. (Margaret)
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A Widow's Tale, and Other Stories
Oliphant, Mrs. (Margaret)
Fiction; Short stories
be asked at moments when the answer is impossible. This woman could find
no reply as she sat miserable over her fire. She was not suffering the
tortures of jealousy, nor driven frantic with the thought that all the
tenderness which ever was hers was transferred to another. Perhaps her
sober age delivered her from such reflections; they found no place at
all in the tumult of her thoughts; the questions involved to her were
wholly different: what she was to do; how she was to satisfy her
children without shaming their youth and her own mature purity of
matronhood which had protected them from any suggestion of such evil?
How they were ever to be silenced and contented without overthrowing for
ever in their minds their father and the respect they owed him? This was
the treble problem which was before her--by degrees the all-absorbing
one which banished every other from her thoughts. What could she say to
Horace and Milly? How were they to be kept from this shame? Had they
been both boys or both girls, it seemed to their mother that the
question would have been less terrible; but boy and girl, young man and
young woman, how were they ever to be told? How were they to be deceived
and not told? Their mother's powers gave way and all her strength in
face of this question. How was she to do it? How was she to refrain from
doing it? That pretext of a quarrel, how was it to be kept up? and in
what other way--in what other way, oh heaven! was she to explain to them
that their father and she could meet under the same roof no more? She
covered her face with her hands, and wept in the anguish of helplessness
and incapacity; then dried her eyes, and tried again to plan what she
could do. Oh that she had the wings of a dove, that she might flee away
and be at rest!--but whither could she flee? She thought of pretending
some sudden loss of money, some failure of fortune, and rushing away
with the children to America, to Australia, to the end of the world; but
if she did so, what then? Would it become less necessary, more easy to
explain? Alas! no; nothing could change that horrible necessity. The
best thing of all, she said to herself, if she were equal to it, would
be to return home, to live there as long as it was possible, with her
heart shut up, holding her peace, saying nothing--as long as it was
possible!--until circumstances should force upon her the explanation
which would have to be made. Let it be put off for weeks, for months,
even for years, it would have to be made at last.
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