"I understand you," replied De Walden; "and if I can bring you any
welcome intelligence, depend on it that I will."
He then hastily departed; and worn out with anxiety, want of sleep, and
sorrow, I retired to my bed, and fortunately sunk into a deep and quiet
slumber.
When I went down to breakfast the next day, I found De Walden waiting
for me. His cheek was pale, and his look dejected; but he smiled when I
entered the room, and told me he brought me tidings of my husband.
"Indeed!" cried I with eagerness.
"Yes; I have seen him. He is at a lodging on the Italian Boulevards--and
alone."
"Alone! And--and does he not mean to see me; to call and--"
"How could he? Have you forgotten how you last parted? You resenting
deeply his then only seeming delinquency; and he wounded by, yet
resigned to, your evident resentment."
"True, true: yet still--"
"No; I had a long conversation with Pendarves,--for after his late
behaviour, and being convinced that he was alone, I had no objection to
call on him,--and he received me as I wished. He even was as open on
every subject as I could desire; and I found him, though still
persecuted by the letters of La Beauvais, resolved never to renew any
correspondence with her."
"If so, and if sure of himself, why not write to me, if he does not like
to visit me? I am sure I have not proved myself unforgiving."
"Shall I tell you why? A feeling that does him honour; a consciousness
that, fallen as he is from the high estate he once held in your esteem
and that of others, he cannot presume to require of you, though you are
his wife, a re-instatement in your love and your society; and he very
properly feels that the first advance should come from you: for though,
as I told him, the relaxed principles of the world allow husbands a
latitude which they deny to wives; still, in the eyes of God, and in
those of nicely feeling men, the fault is in both sexes equal; and an
offender like Pendarves is no longer entitled, as he was before, to the
tenderness of a virtuous wife. Nay, Pendarves, penitent and self-judged,
agrees with me in this opinion, and is thereby raised in my estimation."
"What! does Pendarves feel and think thus?"
"Yes; therefore I will myself entreat for him entire forgiveness; but
not directly, and as if a husband who has so grossly erred were as dear
to you as one without error."
Here De Walden's voice failed him; but he soon after added, in a low
voice, "And I trust that to have aided in bringing about your re-union
will support me under the feelings which the sight of it may occasion
me."
"But does Pendarves think I shall be always inexorable?"
"He cannot think so; from your oft experienced kindness."
"Then why prolong his anxiety? Why not offer to return with him to
England directly?"
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