I began to feel quite sorry for the poor beggar, and the feeling was
increased later, in spite of his causing me to pass a most
uncomfortable evening. They all came in to see me after dinner. Mr.
Ellmer watched Babiole about with great pride, tried her voice at the
piano, on which he performed with some taste, and declared that it was
good enough for grand opera. On the other hand he missed no
opportunity of snubbing his wife with ferocity, begged her not to
skip, and advised her to leave her juvenile ways to her daughter. Poor
Babiole spent the evening in torture. At each word of extravagant
praise to herself she blushed uncomfortably; at every unkind speech to
her mother the tears came to her eyes. In the climax of her misery I
bore a most unwilling share.
I was bidding them all good-night on the doorstep, and was shaking
hands with Babiole, when Mr. Ellmer, who had several times during the
evening disconcerted us both by tactless reference to the supposed
excited state of our feelings, said jocularly, that that was not the
way sweethearts parted when he was young. Ready to satisfy him, but
afraid to offend or frighten Babiole, I laughed awkwardly and
hesitated, while the young girl blushed and tried, for the first time,
to withdraw her hand from mine.
'Don't be affected, Bab,' said her father roughly.
I would have let her go, but at the sharp words she shivered, and put
up her face with a sob of sensitive terror to mine. I stooped and
kissed her, and if she shrank from the touch of my trembling lips, or
the contact of my hideous face with her fair cheek, at least she felt
none of the burning bitterness which seemed to turn my very heart to
gall, and the caress of my hungry lips into a sting. For the
remembrance of the last fair girl I had kissed, of the languid
indifference which had left her cold to my devotion, rushed into my
brain and gave added venom to this second and more severe misfortune.
She drew away from me with a new timidity, and ran down the steps
after her mother, while Mr. Ellmer smoked a last cigar with me in the
garden, and called upon me to condole with him, which, in the
disturbed state of thought and feeling I was in, I was ready enough
to do. For when he pitifully dilated on the life his acid-tempered
wife had led him, on the coldness with which she had always repelled
instead of encouraged him, on the martyr-like airs with which she had
received his every attempt to reform, I felt that I was ready to side
with the most worthless man living against the most worthy woman, and
listened sympathetically; and when he pointed to the dutifully subdued
fear which shone in his daughter's eyes, in answer to the gaze of his
own affection, I listened in silence to his cynical conclusion:--
'Women, they make you pay by the nose either way, sir. If they're not
honest, they take it out of your pocket; if they're honest, they take
it out of your heart. But rob you, one way or another, they all will
to the end.'
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